hey! merry christmas everyone =) love you all and thank you for being such wonderful friends. i would've not survived the year if it wasnt for this blog, the people who read and comment, and those who prayed for me. you all are in my heart and in my prayers. i am looking forward to 2006 and i know that the coming year will still be full of challenges but that it will only make us all better people.
a few months back, i was so looking forward to this christmas coz it would've been the first with someone new and wonderful. it was very tragic and sad. it would've been different and a lot happier but i know that there are things that we just can't control. i learned a lot and by sharing, i hope that you guys did pick up a thing or two. it's very hard and some people may not understand the loss that i feel but that's ok with me.
christmas is not only the time to remember our loved ones through gifts and greetings. it is a very special time of the year because we are celebrating the birth of our lord. i hope that in our hearts, we'll remember that always. we may not receive what we really want this christmas but what's important is we have Jesus in our hearts. let's all celebrate that wonderful gift...the gift of love from God.
to my little angel, i will forever be thankful to HIM for giving me the chance to have you even for a very short period of time. i know you'll be having the best christmas because you're actually there with HIM. tell HIM that i love HIM...very very much. love you too angel!!! i really miss you and i still wish that you're here with me.
21.12.05
hi everyone. i've been rather busy the past two weeks. we joined the "deck the halls" contest at work and me and marvie were in charge over-all. we stayed almost everyday after work to finish up decorating. it's nice. i like it. for the first time, nageffort kami magdecorate. last saturday was sykes christmas party. i had fun! sayang lang nde ako nanalo. the grand prize was a brand new car! honda jazz. sayang noh? bart won iPod nano. sana lang bigay nya sa kin hahaha but i have an iPod mini na. pero taos puso kong tatanggapin kung ibibigay nya sa kin =)
what else? greet and pray for my angel =) today's supposed to be his/her birthday. sayang noh, sana andito na sya ngayon but i know my angel's in very good hands right now and alam ko favorite na apo din sya ni daddy ni mama shala =)
it feels good to hear and see friends too. we met up with bing last week and nelson the other night. and i have another balikbayan friend who will be married on january 10. galing noh?
eto pa...last sunday, may tumawag daw sa bahay namin. sossy daw ang boses at hinahanap ako pero ayaw magbigay ng name. sa totoo lang, akala ko si mama shala yun! as in nde ako umalis ng bahay the next day naghihintay ng tawag. langya...si mckx bading pala! namiss ko din ang lola nyo (na umuwi kasama ang boypren na arabo) pero di ba...it would've been really really nice kung si mama shala yun (i miss you mamu!)
in case nde ako maka-bati MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
what else? greet and pray for my angel =) today's supposed to be his/her birthday. sayang noh, sana andito na sya ngayon but i know my angel's in very good hands right now and alam ko favorite na apo din sya ni daddy ni mama shala =)
it feels good to hear and see friends too. we met up with bing last week and nelson the other night. and i have another balikbayan friend who will be married on january 10. galing noh?
eto pa...last sunday, may tumawag daw sa bahay namin. sossy daw ang boses at hinahanap ako pero ayaw magbigay ng name. sa totoo lang, akala ko si mama shala yun! as in nde ako umalis ng bahay the next day naghihintay ng tawag. langya...si mckx bading pala! namiss ko din ang lola nyo (na umuwi kasama ang boypren na arabo) pero di ba...it would've been really really nice kung si mama shala yun (i miss you mamu!)
in case nde ako maka-bati MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
8.12.05
hehehe im such a bad friend. i used to have this little crush on one of my barkada. that's like 9 or 10 years ago. every now and then i'd see him in barkada parties and recently, if i go to my officemate's house i'd call him (he lives in the same village). his ex and current girlfriend are from our barkada too. so where am i going here? ala lang. yesterday we went to the wake of our friend's dad. "we" as in me and him. it was nice. i was again reminded why i had a crush on him before. he's ever so nice, such a gentleman, and painfully funny. plus he's cute in a jason zamora (maneuvres hello!) sort of way. man i sound so silly. i know! i know! i know! imagine walking in the rain with someone assisting you not to get into puddles, wiping the rain off your shirt, telling you "gulo ng hair mo" then actually fix it, offering his jacket because you're so stupid you left yours in the office and actually feeling the warmth and comfort (plus the nice smell) of his jacket. i know! i know! i know!
wala lang...gusto ko lang kiligin =)
hi bart =)
btw, nelson called. it was so nice to hear from him again. i think we'll meet next week. really looking forward to that.
wala lang...gusto ko lang kiligin =)
hi bart =)
btw, nelson called. it was so nice to hear from him again. i think we'll meet next week. really looking forward to that.
5.12.05
nelson's home! i haven't seen him but i know he' already here. i am so looking forward to seeing him anytime soon.
btw, we at the office are a little emotional right now. ok fine...nagdradrama. if you will visit macromedia.com, you'll notice that they changed the logo now to adobe's logo and nakalagay dun "formerly macromedia." shet. papatayin na nila macromedia. grabe. eventually, mawawala na sya at nde na kilala ng mga tao. sad.
hayun lang...december. dapat...manganganak na ko...shit.
btw, we at the office are a little emotional right now. ok fine...nagdradrama. if you will visit macromedia.com, you'll notice that they changed the logo now to adobe's logo and nakalagay dun "formerly macromedia." shet. papatayin na nila macromedia. grabe. eventually, mawawala na sya at nde na kilala ng mga tao. sad.
hayun lang...december. dapat...manganganak na ko...shit.
26.11.05
last nov 19, we went to bagac, bataan (my macromedia family). we had fun, fun, fun!!! click on the links below to see my kodak albums =)
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.el8ramf&x=1&y=-xmgkks
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.7zdhosn&x=1&y=-i0g84o
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http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.t20fpd3&x=1&y=2eml79
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.a6jwcvr&x=1&y=-7uddfc
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.181mj4hz&x=1&y=-9g75wy
on other news, sabi ko nga eh...i love the book more (harry potter 4). for those who did not read the book, it was a very good movie but for those who read the books, its nice but a bit boring. i know...that's normal and you're not to expect anything more kasi they did their best to make the movie. astig pa rin.
later, we're watching the exorcism of emily rose...
tagal kong nde nagblog noh? dami kasi ginagawa sa office lately. wala na tuloy akong makwento. next time na lang.
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.el8ramf&x=1&y=-xmgkks
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.7zdhosn&x=1&y=-i0g84o
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.q9152rr&x=1&y=fkd2ap
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.6ew88rr&x=1&y=-kl2xag
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.9vz1kx3&x=1&y=o9zamd
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.t20fpd3&x=1&y=2eml79
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.a6jwcvr&x=1&y=-7uddfc
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=15yt86cr.181mj4hz&x=1&y=-9g75wy
on other news, sabi ko nga eh...i love the book more (harry potter 4). for those who did not read the book, it was a very good movie but for those who read the books, its nice but a bit boring. i know...that's normal and you're not to expect anything more kasi they did their best to make the movie. astig pa rin.
later, we're watching the exorcism of emily rose...
tagal kong nde nagblog noh? dami kasi ginagawa sa office lately. wala na tuloy akong makwento. next time na lang.
15.11.05
life is weird. damn. wala akong maisip. before logging in, i thought of all the nice things that happened recently. i had so many things to blog about but i forgot everything. weird noh.
this saturday, our team is going to bataan! yey! and next week is thanksgiving so more pahinga and hopefully, get out of town.
ay patay na si eddie guerrero =(
this saturday, our team is going to bataan! yey! and next week is thanksgiving so more pahinga and hopefully, get out of town.
ay patay na si eddie guerrero =(
9.11.05
31.10.05
hi everyone. while almost all my friends are out, i am here in the office getting ready for work. its only 8:30 in the evening and my shift actually starts at 12midnight. bart dropped me off after dinner with ryan (yes he's here na!), his future wife (who is really nice and pretty - swerte ng lolo mo!), and loi (carlo villarama) who they got as their wedding coordinator.
we went to loi's place first to meet them then off to crown (a.k.a holiday inn formerly known as manila galleria suites) to check out the place. they liked the grand ballroom and was really surprised to find out that their rates are actually lower than gazebo, fernwood, etc. i know there are more hotels or restos to choose from but they only have limited time here in manila to scout for their reception. their parents suggested christ the king church and i do hope that the date they want is still available. man...i think i am more excited that they are well, nde naman siguro. sila ikakasal eh. it's just nice to look around.
and of course there's this big usual question "kayo, kelan kayo ikakasal?" honestly...i dont think about it anymore. when i got pregnant, we almost did. he asked (i feel like out of duty) and i said no (because i feel its not proper). it may be one of the reasons why i was so stressed out and chuva. i dont know. it was all too weird for me. basta. it was all too weird that it didn't feel right...
anyways....
i got in the office around 7:30pm. since my shift starts at 12, i texted my friend penny who invited me for coffee earlier (i initially said no because i had plans). it's her birthday tomorrow, november 1, so why not. time to catch up with her. i missed our daily exchange of emails when she was in the states. chatted for almost two hours then our other friends joined us. it was of course such a lively evening. jacky, hershey, tupie, preck, pepo, and yzzy...we had a great time as usual.
weird. my girlfriends and i...we've known each other since we were kids. as in gradeschool but til know, we still love each other dearly. if only relationships with men can be that way, everybody will be happy. at least i know i will. there's love, honesty, loyalty, understanding, support for each other, and respect.
we can only wish.
we went to loi's place first to meet them then off to crown (a.k.a holiday inn formerly known as manila galleria suites) to check out the place. they liked the grand ballroom and was really surprised to find out that their rates are actually lower than gazebo, fernwood, etc. i know there are more hotels or restos to choose from but they only have limited time here in manila to scout for their reception. their parents suggested christ the king church and i do hope that the date they want is still available. man...i think i am more excited that they are well, nde naman siguro. sila ikakasal eh. it's just nice to look around.
and of course there's this big usual question "kayo, kelan kayo ikakasal?" honestly...i dont think about it anymore. when i got pregnant, we almost did. he asked (i feel like out of duty) and i said no (because i feel its not proper). it may be one of the reasons why i was so stressed out and chuva. i dont know. it was all too weird for me. basta. it was all too weird that it didn't feel right...
anyways....
i got in the office around 7:30pm. since my shift starts at 12, i texted my friend penny who invited me for coffee earlier (i initially said no because i had plans). it's her birthday tomorrow, november 1, so why not. time to catch up with her. i missed our daily exchange of emails when she was in the states. chatted for almost two hours then our other friends joined us. it was of course such a lively evening. jacky, hershey, tupie, preck, pepo, and yzzy...we had a great time as usual.
weird. my girlfriends and i...we've known each other since we were kids. as in gradeschool but til know, we still love each other dearly. if only relationships with men can be that way, everybody will be happy. at least i know i will. there's love, honesty, loyalty, understanding, support for each other, and respect.
we can only wish.
23.10.05
wazzap!!! boredness. sana october 28 na kasi someone special is coming! =)
last week, may nareceive akong kakatawang text na pinadala ko din sa mga friends ko. naku. lahat puro sobrang gulat at anu-ano pang reaction. kasi ganito yun
Guess who's 2 months on the way?....si Santa! Merry Christmas in advance
kasi nde tinapos yung text. nde sila nag-scroll down. promise. tawa talaga ako ng tawa sa kanila. next time promise. promise talaga...akin na lang yun!!!
last week, may nareceive akong kakatawang text na pinadala ko din sa mga friends ko. naku. lahat puro sobrang gulat at anu-ano pang reaction. kasi ganito yun
Guess who's 2 months on the way?....si Santa! Merry Christmas in advance
kasi nde tinapos yung text. nde sila nag-scroll down. promise. tawa talaga ako ng tawa sa kanila. next time promise. promise talaga...akin na lang yun!!!
12.10.05
3.10.05
hay nde ako natuloy sa dentist last friday coz puyat ako and nde pwede mabunutan. i went back early this morning to finally have my tooth extracted (yes shala pareho talaga tayo, nde kaya ng powers ko ang root canal). akala ko makakatakas na ko sa dentist kong mahilig talagang mag-save ng ngipin. sabi ko bunot na! sabi nya, kung sure na. sabi ko oo.
sabay pasok na kami sa hightech na clinic. i always get impressed sa mga thingys ng mga dentist. pinakita nya sa kin sa TV kung ano itsura ng ngipin ko. sabi nya "tignan mo, buong-buo pa yung ngipin mo. nasira lang yung tanggal na na filling before." sabi ko bunot na para tapos na at nde ko talaga kaya ata ang root canal. i never experienced that pero accd to a lot of people masakit sya. 2 lang ata nagsabing nde. ay 3 pala kasama yung dentist ko. sabi nya since ayaw ko talaga, gagawin na lang nya yung new thing sa pagtreat ng ganung case. semi-root canal kung baga. promise nde masakit yung ginawa pero after...anakng! nun ko lang na-experience ang ganung sakit sa ngipin. may pagka-hightech nga sya and na-save pa rin yung ngipin ko. naka-2 tig 500mg na gamot ako at 30minutes before naka-recover. feel ko high na ko kaya nakatulog ako. ibang klase! nde ako makakain. ang hirap matulog. ang hirap magsalita. i dont think i can go to work later =(
sabay pasok na kami sa hightech na clinic. i always get impressed sa mga thingys ng mga dentist. pinakita nya sa kin sa TV kung ano itsura ng ngipin ko. sabi nya "tignan mo, buong-buo pa yung ngipin mo. nasira lang yung tanggal na na filling before." sabi ko bunot na para tapos na at nde ko talaga kaya ata ang root canal. i never experienced that pero accd to a lot of people masakit sya. 2 lang ata nagsabing nde. ay 3 pala kasama yung dentist ko. sabi nya since ayaw ko talaga, gagawin na lang nya yung new thing sa pagtreat ng ganung case. semi-root canal kung baga. promise nde masakit yung ginawa pero after...anakng! nun ko lang na-experience ang ganung sakit sa ngipin. may pagka-hightech nga sya and na-save pa rin yung ngipin ko. naka-2 tig 500mg na gamot ako at 30minutes before naka-recover. feel ko high na ko kaya nakatulog ako. ibang klase! nde ako makakain. ang hirap matulog. ang hirap magsalita. i dont think i can go to work later =(
29.9.05
im on leave tomorrow. im having a tooth extracted. im not afraid of the dentist really except when the dentish insist that i have a root canal. i'd rather have it removed! i know it will create spaces between my very sensitive teeth but i'd rather have it removed than feel the pain of root canal.
i've been meaning to update my website and the release of dreamweaver 8 inspired me to do so. so many nice features! i love the xslt =) will update soon!
for the meantime...taba ko na noh?
i've been meaning to update my website and the release of dreamweaver 8 inspired me to do so. so many nice features! i love the xslt =) will update soon!
for the meantime...taba ko na noh?
21.9.05
funny. while eating dinner, nagkwekwentuhan kami tungkol sa nung bata pa si bart. sabi ng mommy nya "hay nako. lagi ako pinapatawag sa school. alam mo yung susulat ng alphabet? yung paulit-ulit na a,b,c? naku, susulat lang daw nyan isang beses tapos ayaw na. kasi paulit-ulit lang" at syempre lolo mo, deny. sabi pa ng mommy nya "ayaw nyan nagpapahatid sa school. kung ihahatid, bababa na ng kotse isang kalye before lourdes (qc). ewan ko ba, nakakantyawan siguro"
promise. natawa ko.
promise. natawa ko.
14.9.05
edsamail employees semi-reunion kanina at mcdonalds emerald (through the kind heart of margot who's connected with mcdo now)
it was nice and fun to see old friends. they all said the same thing...i lost so much weight and im blooming (am i?). people who went:
MRU (loud and big as ever! my orig daddy)
edrik
margot
tina (yes...as pretty as ever)
jayjay
clea
toto (gay as ever)
robert
carol
patrick
cez (loyal to margot pa rin)
tessa
nina (the hot mama, who still looks hot!)
jenny
erwin (he lost some weight and gwapo na sya hehehe)
junji
carlo (who helped host the party)
jeff (si diego!)
vincent (praning pa rin)
barok
cliff
robert (badong. ang laki pa rin ng tyan!)
john
me and bart (of course...)
and some na na-hire after we left =)
sayang walang representative ang the geeks of R&D. si erwin lang hehe and nagtawanan talaga lahat nun nagpakitaan ng mga old pics and mga edsamail things like yung clock, pins, CDs. tessa even have her edsamail id. kulet noh? it was nice to see them all again. i dont know some people there...i think yung mga dumating after we left. like sa CS, si christian. crush ko talaga si christian hahaha he's one of the CS guys. sayang nde kami nag-abot hahaha pero he's nice. think ryan agoncillo na matangkad. san ka pa di ba? hihihi i have a crush!
they asked about nelson, roselle (yes mamu tina says hi), bing and yung iba na wala na sa pilipinas. they'll plan another get-together daw and MRU will sponsor it naman next time.
it was nice and fun to see old friends. they all said the same thing...i lost so much weight and im blooming (am i?). people who went:
MRU (loud and big as ever! my orig daddy)
edrik
margot
tina (yes...as pretty as ever)
jayjay
clea
toto (gay as ever)
robert
carol
patrick
cez (loyal to margot pa rin)
tessa
nina (the hot mama, who still looks hot!)
jenny
erwin (he lost some weight and gwapo na sya hehehe)
junji
carlo (who helped host the party)
jeff (si diego!)
vincent (praning pa rin)
barok
cliff
robert (badong. ang laki pa rin ng tyan!)
john
me and bart (of course...)
and some na na-hire after we left =)
sayang walang representative ang the geeks of R&D. si erwin lang hehe and nagtawanan talaga lahat nun nagpakitaan ng mga old pics and mga edsamail things like yung clock, pins, CDs. tessa even have her edsamail id. kulet noh? it was nice to see them all again. i dont know some people there...i think yung mga dumating after we left. like sa CS, si christian. crush ko talaga si christian hahaha he's one of the CS guys. sayang nde kami nag-abot hahaha pero he's nice. think ryan agoncillo na matangkad. san ka pa di ba? hihihi i have a crush!
they asked about nelson, roselle (yes mamu tina says hi), bing and yung iba na wala na sa pilipinas. they'll plan another get-together daw and MRU will sponsor it naman next time.
6.9.05
i am depressed beyond grief. worried and i dont know how to face each day. there's so many things going on right now and it seems like there's no way that i can get out of the hole that im in right now. many people said that life's a wheel. you can never be always at the bottom. you're bound to be up there.
if that is true, then i'd like to complain that the wheel moved so slow when i was at the bottom and too fast when i was on top. i only experieced short moment of joy and long periods of being down.
i know we are responsible for our own happiness but i can't find mine right now. it's weird to have these feelings and i wish that i could turn back the clock...even for just a couple of months. it would make a big difference.
but i can't. i have to live with the compounded mistakes i've made. there's no turning back now. all i can do is try to make something out of nothing. i pray for His guidance. i am very thankful that i live to see each day but it also pains me to be in such situation.
i dont know how long i should carry this burden. i promise myself to do something about it and i will...
if that is true, then i'd like to complain that the wheel moved so slow when i was at the bottom and too fast when i was on top. i only experieced short moment of joy and long periods of being down.
i know we are responsible for our own happiness but i can't find mine right now. it's weird to have these feelings and i wish that i could turn back the clock...even for just a couple of months. it would make a big difference.
but i can't. i have to live with the compounded mistakes i've made. there's no turning back now. all i can do is try to make something out of nothing. i pray for His guidance. i am very thankful that i live to see each day but it also pains me to be in such situation.
i dont know how long i should carry this burden. i promise myself to do something about it and i will...
30.8.05
yesterday, august 29, was my college bud lhen's birthday.
today, august 31, is hershey's (my lovable best girlfriend) birthday
i love birthdays and these two wonderful people are very special to me. i will forever be thankful for them. they were with me in the hospital when i lost my angel (also cel, buchoy, noel, mercy, and bart of course). hershey made me laugh despite the physical pain i was feeling before the D&C procedure and lhen spent the next day with me filling me up with lots of funny memories and kwento's that helped me sane.
i love my friends =)
today, august 31, is hershey's (my lovable best girlfriend) birthday
i love birthdays and these two wonderful people are very special to me. i will forever be thankful for them. they were with me in the hospital when i lost my angel (also cel, buchoy, noel, mercy, and bart of course). hershey made me laugh despite the physical pain i was feeling before the D&C procedure and lhen spent the next day with me filling me up with lots of funny memories and kwento's that helped me sane.
i love my friends =)
29.8.05
happy!!! our new babies...
first the box...
finally, the beautiful machine that is a G5 is out
mukang ref from the inside hehehe super linis sa loob!
haay astig. i wish astig din monitors namin. but we have to use the old monitors...anyways...happy!!!
studio 8 launch! happening on sept 6 at 9:30am sa THX in makati (near makati med) punta kayo! register online to attend =)
first the box...
finally, the beautiful machine that is a G5 is out
mukang ref from the inside hehehe super linis sa loob!
haay astig. i wish astig din monitors namin. but we have to use the old monitors...anyways...happy!!!
studio 8 launch! happening on sept 6 at 9:30am sa THX in makati (near makati med) punta kayo! register online to attend =)
23.8.05
i feel that there's no such thing as a perfect combination when it comes to relationships. last sunday, i watched will and grace (as usual). it's a continuation of the episode where leo (grace's husbond) cheated on her. it was unforgivable for her and will. i understand how she feels and i kinda know how it feels.
we all want our relationships to be good but it's really impossible specially if only one of you is trying his/her best to make things happen. it's a commitment. you both have to do your part. you don't go on blaming your partner for your unacceptable behavior just because he/she's not perfect (good looks, extremely smart, rich, famous, funny etc.).
i chanced upon a blog of a very pretty girl (ji) who's very much in love with her boyfriend (who's not so good looking noh) . he cheated. he wont admit it but she knows (we always know. right girls?). she said that it seem to have start with text, phone calls, and him (her boyfriend) sharing his troubles. the girl being there for him to listen and give advice. i have to agree with ji. if you have issues, why don't you share it with your partner? that's what they're there for.
i think some people forget that when you are in a relationship, you are not only there to share the love but more than anything, there should be friendship.
her posts are long and i can tell she's deeply hurt and can't seem to trust anymore. the guy asked for a chance for them to work things out but he seem to be doing the same thing.
that's one thing i really dont understand about men. ano ba, pinatawad na nga kayo tapos gagawin nyo ulit? while its true that not only men cheat but hey im a girl, this is my blog so why should i give you guys a fair chance? write your own blog. damnit.
i just wish that we could all be happy.
and btw, the thing you guys say that what we dont know wont hurt us? sus...you dont know what you're talking about. that might have work during the barbaric times but with technoly (and me being the master of knowing everything) it's easy to get caught. no matter how careful you think you are. my services are for hire, btw. i have not only once helped someone "research" something. no, its im not invading privacy. the things are just there...in front of us. i just know how to connect things. that's all. it's so funny the things you find out in the internet.
i dont know why im being like this. guess im a bit frustrated. it pains me to kow there are people out there who loves honestly but not the right person. painful indeed. painful.
we all want our relationships to be good but it's really impossible specially if only one of you is trying his/her best to make things happen. it's a commitment. you both have to do your part. you don't go on blaming your partner for your unacceptable behavior just because he/she's not perfect (good looks, extremely smart, rich, famous, funny etc.).
i chanced upon a blog of a very pretty girl (ji) who's very much in love with her boyfriend (who's not so good looking noh) . he cheated. he wont admit it but she knows (we always know. right girls?). she said that it seem to have start with text, phone calls, and him (her boyfriend) sharing his troubles. the girl being there for him to listen and give advice. i have to agree with ji. if you have issues, why don't you share it with your partner? that's what they're there for.
i think some people forget that when you are in a relationship, you are not only there to share the love but more than anything, there should be friendship.
her posts are long and i can tell she's deeply hurt and can't seem to trust anymore. the guy asked for a chance for them to work things out but he seem to be doing the same thing.
that's one thing i really dont understand about men. ano ba, pinatawad na nga kayo tapos gagawin nyo ulit? while its true that not only men cheat but hey im a girl, this is my blog so why should i give you guys a fair chance? write your own blog. damnit.
i just wish that we could all be happy.
and btw, the thing you guys say that what we dont know wont hurt us? sus...you dont know what you're talking about. that might have work during the barbaric times but with technoly (and me being the master of knowing everything) it's easy to get caught. no matter how careful you think you are. my services are for hire, btw. i have not only once helped someone "research" something. no, its im not invading privacy. the things are just there...in front of us. i just know how to connect things. that's all. it's so funny the things you find out in the internet.
i dont know why im being like this. guess im a bit frustrated. it pains me to kow there are people out there who loves honestly but not the right person. painful indeed. painful.
18.8.05
i have troubles sleeping at home. why? well...
1. aircon not working so i have to sleep downstairs because it's so hot in my room
2. MWSS fixing pipes outside. they are not using the usual person-held jackhammer but the big truck! imagine the noise
3. im still not used to the schedule
4. i miss having my bebetoy beside me
the other night while playing splinter cell, bart and i were talking about songs that reminds us of the other and songs that we dedicate to each other. while thinking of these songs, he belted out his own version of dancing queen. as in "you can dance, you can cry, having the time of your life. see that girl, watch her sing bringing the tambourine." naloka talaga ako promise!
ay kanina we played bingo. ang lolo mo nag-expect na manalo talaga sya eh. iba daw feeling nya. in fairness to him, mas maganda naman yung cards nya. namumuro pa sya pero in the end, nde pa rin kami nanalo. meron pang next time hehehe
ay picture!
1. aircon not working so i have to sleep downstairs because it's so hot in my room
2. MWSS fixing pipes outside. they are not using the usual person-held jackhammer but the big truck! imagine the noise
3. im still not used to the schedule
4. i miss having my bebetoy beside me
the other night while playing splinter cell, bart and i were talking about songs that reminds us of the other and songs that we dedicate to each other. while thinking of these songs, he belted out his own version of dancing queen. as in "you can dance, you can cry, having the time of your life. see that girl, watch her sing bringing the tambourine." naloka talaga ako promise!
ay kanina we played bingo. ang lolo mo nag-expect na manalo talaga sya eh. iba daw feeling nya. in fairness to him, mas maganda naman yung cards nya. namumuro pa sya pero in the end, nde pa rin kami nanalo. meron pang next time hehehe
ay picture!
15.8.05
I’ve been tagged by SHALA!
Here goes...
1. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there’s no one around you?
I love to eat, sleep, read, watch TV, and surf the net. These are the things that I'm most likely to be found doing when I'm alone. Recently, I developed the addiction of playing BINGO but when all else fails, I just stay inside my room and read. Unlike some people, I do enjoy being alone sometimes. It gives me time to recharge and do things I like doing on my own. I used to stitch but I haven't had the chance to do that. I haven't found the crossstitch pattern that inspired me to go back to stitching.
2. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
I cry. It feels a lot better after. I've been crying a lot lately. Same reason. I'm still not over the "what ifs" stage but I know it'll get better soon. Sleep and talking to my bestfriend (bart) also helps =)
3. Tag 5 friends and ask them to post it in theirs.
I'm not gonna tag anybody =)
Here goes...
1. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there’s no one around you?
I love to eat, sleep, read, watch TV, and surf the net. These are the things that I'm most likely to be found doing when I'm alone. Recently, I developed the addiction of playing BINGO but when all else fails, I just stay inside my room and read. Unlike some people, I do enjoy being alone sometimes. It gives me time to recharge and do things I like doing on my own. I used to stitch but I haven't had the chance to do that. I haven't found the crossstitch pattern that inspired me to go back to stitching.
2. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
I cry. It feels a lot better after. I've been crying a lot lately. Same reason. I'm still not over the "what ifs" stage but I know it'll get better soon. Sleep and talking to my bestfriend (bart) also helps =)
3. Tag 5 friends and ask them to post it in theirs.
I'm not gonna tag anybody =)
i feel weird but happy. back at work but not really doing anything at the moment. im still going through the refresher training. i badly need it. two months away from work made me feel like a freshie. as in i dont know anything. im trying to familiarize myself again as to where i could find the resources that i need. it's hard.
we had dinner (eat all you can baby!) after they (bart and mike - his teammate) played billiards at big shot. shet. i remember shala you guys used to go there (edsamail days). i never went with you guys kasi alam nyo naman na takot ako kay bart noon hehehe baka kasi pagsamantalahan ako. anyways, nakakamiss yung mga araw na yun na gigimik after work di ba? the movie's that bing and i used to watch...wow. life.
two weeks from now, "ber" month na. christmas. hay. i filled my leave on the 22nd of december. that was supposed to be my due date. in memory of my supposed-to-be-baby, im taking a leave from work and will hear mass.
i just miss my angel...
we had dinner (eat all you can baby!) after they (bart and mike - his teammate) played billiards at big shot. shet. i remember shala you guys used to go there (edsamail days). i never went with you guys kasi alam nyo naman na takot ako kay bart noon hehehe baka kasi pagsamantalahan ako. anyways, nakakamiss yung mga araw na yun na gigimik after work di ba? the movie's that bing and i used to watch...wow. life.
two weeks from now, "ber" month na. christmas. hay. i filled my leave on the 22nd of december. that was supposed to be my due date. in memory of my supposed-to-be-baby, im taking a leave from work and will hear mass.
i just miss my angel...
12.8.05
funny how we set ourself up for something only to be disappointed in the end. weird that things still works out. scary what people can do.
random thoughts. something that you pick up or something that you feel like saying outloud. something that perfectly describes how you really feel.
peace of mind. that's what everybody wants. it's so simple yet so hard to achieve. sometimes, you feel that you have everything already only to find out that you dont really have anything.
God is giving. whatever you want, he can give it to you. he gives us gifts of joy but sometimes, we forget to thank him for it. God is powerful. he can take that gift anytime he wants to. not to demonstrate his power over you but to tell you that he loves you and he wants you to be stronger.
i love the internet. funny the things you find here.
i am weak. i thought i was strong but no, im no better than what you are right now. i dont know what can make me happy. we are supposed to make ourselves happy but instead, we try to look for that in other people. from our family, loved ones, or friends. it's a good thing but wouldn't it be better if we make them happy instead?
im not really making any sense. i just feel soooo incomplete.
on a lighter note, im officially back to work. pictures of course!
random thoughts. something that you pick up or something that you feel like saying outloud. something that perfectly describes how you really feel.
peace of mind. that's what everybody wants. it's so simple yet so hard to achieve. sometimes, you feel that you have everything already only to find out that you dont really have anything.
God is giving. whatever you want, he can give it to you. he gives us gifts of joy but sometimes, we forget to thank him for it. God is powerful. he can take that gift anytime he wants to. not to demonstrate his power over you but to tell you that he loves you and he wants you to be stronger.
i love the internet. funny the things you find here.
i am weak. i thought i was strong but no, im no better than what you are right now. i dont know what can make me happy. we are supposed to make ourselves happy but instead, we try to look for that in other people. from our family, loved ones, or friends. it's a good thing but wouldn't it be better if we make them happy instead?
im not really making any sense. i just feel soooo incomplete.
on a lighter note, im officially back to work. pictures of course!
5.8.05
life is short. dont fill it with stupid ideas and dont do those stupid ideas. i dont know really what im talking about. i just wanted to say that hehehe
i've been trying to finish "executive order" by tom clancy and while reading it, i cant help but picture harrison ford as the vice president turned president in tom clancy's novel. wala lang. bagay talaga sya as "jack ryan" astig eh.
what's new?
i've been trying to finish "executive order" by tom clancy and while reading it, i cant help but picture harrison ford as the vice president turned president in tom clancy's novel. wala lang. bagay talaga sya as "jack ryan" astig eh.
what's new?
28.7.05
two weeks na lang and babalik na ko sa work. gone for 2 months i dont know if i can still support the products that i used to handle. i got me a copy of the flash reviewer but i need a PC to install flash mx 2004. our pc at home is too old and doesnt pass the requirements. goodness. hay. so i decided na papasok ako 3 days before yun actual date ng pasok ko para i can review in the office. life.
btw, naglaro ako ng bingo (again) sa SM. meron tinatawag na "winner take all" number na pag yun ang natawag at bumingo sa number na yun, you win the jackpot (rught now its at 30k plus) kaines! 2 numbers na lang nde natatawag sa kin, 20 and 53. 20 is the winner take all number. nauna sya tinawag then 53 so sa 53 ako nanalo. 1000 lang napanalunan ko. kung 20 yun nahuli, shet...30k plus! nuba...anyways, meron pang bukas hehehe wish me luck!
btw, naglaro ako ng bingo (again) sa SM. meron tinatawag na "winner take all" number na pag yun ang natawag at bumingo sa number na yun, you win the jackpot (rught now its at 30k plus) kaines! 2 numbers na lang nde natatawag sa kin, 20 and 53. 20 is the winner take all number. nauna sya tinawag then 53 so sa 53 ako nanalo. 1000 lang napanalunan ko. kung 20 yun nahuli, shet...30k plus! nuba...anyways, meron pang bukas hehehe wish me luck!
19.7.05
hay. our AM asked for me to drop by the office last night for our group pic but i fell asleep and it was raining anyways.
im looking forward to meeting my friends this week (or next week). hay i missed my high school friends. and ana...is also with sykes. i will soon see her! happy eh?
what else is new? ah wala...
wish me luck!!!
im looking forward to meeting my friends this week (or next week). hay i missed my high school friends. and ana...is also with sykes. i will soon see her! happy eh?
what else is new? ah wala...
wish me luck!!!
7.7.05
john paul...after how many months ngayon ka lang nabuhay. i missed you dear and yeah, i hope to hear from you soon.
nothing new. wishing for a miracle for my hair to grow back faster. as in by the end of the month, i hope nasa waist ko na sya hehehe
pictures!
sammy and me
soda =)
and my naughty nephew, wacky...
nothing new. wishing for a miracle for my hair to grow back faster. as in by the end of the month, i hope nasa waist ko na sya hehehe
pictures!
sammy and me
soda =)
and my naughty nephew, wacky...
4.7.05
im here in the office. for the nth time, we're changing workstations. my new seatmate was kind enough to carry my things and put together my machine for me. initiall, they said it might be a bad idea to go here kasi for sure manggugulo lang daw ako and baka nde sila makapagwork sa kin pero hayun, ako na lang daw magasikaso kesa ibang tao.
im glad i came. i missed my officemates (but not work!).
i'd like to say "taena ryan, congratulations!" he finally got his permanent permit in singapore! dude im so proud of you. i told brian to contact you. please email me your contact number para ibibigay ko sa kanya. im not sure if he's got a celfon na eh.
its so nice to hear that things are going well for my friends =) shala's enjoying a grand vacation. kakainggit.
my friend in pagudpud invited me to stay there. she gave birth this monday to a bouncing baby boy. i sooooo want to go back there but the sight of a new born might depress me. life.
im glad i came. i missed my officemates (but not work!).
i'd like to say "taena ryan, congratulations!" he finally got his permanent permit in singapore! dude im so proud of you. i told brian to contact you. please email me your contact number para ibibigay ko sa kanya. im not sure if he's got a celfon na eh.
its so nice to hear that things are going well for my friends =) shala's enjoying a grand vacation. kakainggit.
my friend in pagudpud invited me to stay there. she gave birth this monday to a bouncing baby boy. i sooooo want to go back there but the sight of a new born might depress me. life.
30.6.05
hmmn...i played bingo and nde ako nanalo. carry on.
thanks to the lovely people from work, ivy and lee. if you read thier blogs, you'll somehow amazed and would admire these ladies because they've been through a lot but still surviving and enjoying life. lee's got princess ada, a very lovely baby, and ivy is on the family way. i hope it's ok if i link you up =)
shala, you know na what we do hehehe email me the username and password and what you want to link to your blog =) muah muah muah
nde pa rin ako pinapansin ng mga ina-applyan ko...
tsaka ryan, ang mahal naman kasi pumunta dyan. btw, andyan si johnny bravo. yes, si brian hipolito. you might want to hook up with him (hook up, taena corny ng word) basta h's there working right now. astig =)
wag na kayo umuwi ng pilipinas, ang gulo dito. if you'v been reading the news, 56 na dollars and ang gas is 35 pesos. pamasah is 7.50 php and they're requesting for another increase because of the mahiwagan EVAT. why mahiwaga? under the table ata nun naging batas to. basta, magulo dito ngayon. they're asking for GMA to resign dahil may recorded na usapan nila nun COMELEC official re the dayaan on the last presidential election.
so how do we move forward?
thanks to the lovely people from work, ivy and lee. if you read thier blogs, you'll somehow amazed and would admire these ladies because they've been through a lot but still surviving and enjoying life. lee's got princess ada, a very lovely baby, and ivy is on the family way. i hope it's ok if i link you up =)
shala, you know na what we do hehehe email me the username and password and what you want to link to your blog =) muah muah muah
nde pa rin ako pinapansin ng mga ina-applyan ko...
tsaka ryan, ang mahal naman kasi pumunta dyan. btw, andyan si johnny bravo. yes, si brian hipolito. you might want to hook up with him (hook up, taena corny ng word) basta h's there working right now. astig =)
wag na kayo umuwi ng pilipinas, ang gulo dito. if you'v been reading the news, 56 na dollars and ang gas is 35 pesos. pamasah is 7.50 php and they're requesting for another increase because of the mahiwagan EVAT. why mahiwaga? under the table ata nun naging batas to. basta, magulo dito ngayon. they're asking for GMA to resign dahil may recorded na usapan nila nun COMELEC official re the dayaan on the last presidential election.
so how do we move forward?
29.6.05
22.6.05
nothing new. still contemplating when i should go back to work. i've only used 14 days of my 60day leave. sa totoo lang, nahihiya ako sa office. i know ang tagal ko ng nawala and syempre, i need to tell them when im coming back pero sa totoo lang...nde ko alam kung kelan yun.
walang masyadong bago...ganun pa din. sykes picnic last saturday and of course nde ako pumunta. sayang...andun pa naman parokya ni edgar. hay.
kayo, anong bago?
walang masyadong bago...ganun pa din. sykes picnic last saturday and of course nde ako pumunta. sayang...andun pa naman parokya ni edgar. hay.
kayo, anong bago?
20.6.05
its more than a week now...im semi close to doing regular things but no work for me yet. scary. when i go back to work, baka nde ko na alam mag-support! honestly, i dont want to go back to work anymore but i dont have any savings because for sure, it will take some time before i find a job that pays as good as my current job. im also looking for a 9am-6pm job. gusto ko na ulit regular life.
i still feel sad specially pag mag-isa lang ako. im trying to stay away from reading mags, going to malls, watching too much TV kasi everytime i see a pregnant woman...naaalala ko lang what happened. i know i should face it and accept what happened pero nakakalungkot pa rin eh. eventually, this will pass but for now, i just dont want to be reminded.
my friends visited me. most of them texted and called. not so many people...err...not all my friends (specially my barkada since highschool) knows about my being pregnant so they were really all shocked by what happened. the more i talk about it with them, the less the pain is.
its just so hard to accept why these things happen. they said that there's a reason for this but what exactly is it?
i still feel sad specially pag mag-isa lang ako. im trying to stay away from reading mags, going to malls, watching too much TV kasi everytime i see a pregnant woman...naaalala ko lang what happened. i know i should face it and accept what happened pero nakakalungkot pa rin eh. eventually, this will pass but for now, i just dont want to be reminded.
my friends visited me. most of them texted and called. not so many people...err...not all my friends (specially my barkada since highschool) knows about my being pregnant so they were really all shocked by what happened. the more i talk about it with them, the less the pain is.
its just so hard to accept why these things happen. they said that there's a reason for this but what exactly is it?
13.6.05
ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. just last april, we were celebrating because God gave me the chance to have a child but now...all that is gone and even if almost a week passed already, i can still feel the pain and cant help but cry everytime i remember my little angel
last thursday, my brown spotting changed to red. that afternoon, i went to my OB's clinic. pati sya worried na and not very hopeful coz red na yun blood. she had with her this portable ultrasound device which she uses to listen to the baby's heartbeat. she didnt hear any. she advised that i immediately get an ultrasound. i called bart and asked him to go to the clinic ASAP. when he got there, i didnt get an ultrasound anymore. we went directly to the hospital. my OB called ahead and so the people there were expecting me na. was brought to the emergency room and everything happened so fast. basta na-feel ko yung super sakit na contractions and when i went to take a pee, two big blood came out. i was then brought to the operating room for a D&C. i entered the OR at 10pm and was out of the recovery room 1am the following day. when i was brought to my room, wala na ko nagawa but to cry.
sobrang sakit ng feeling ng mawala sya. i was really looking forward to this christmas coz i was thinking by then nakalabas na yung baby ko but unfortunately, nawala sya. i cannot explain the pain that i am feeling right now. i just wish that God will still bless me and give me another chance in the future to have a baby. i promise to take very good care of it.
i have to thank God na rin coz walang masamang nangyari sa kin. thanks to my friends who went to the hospital.
last thursday, my brown spotting changed to red. that afternoon, i went to my OB's clinic. pati sya worried na and not very hopeful coz red na yun blood. she had with her this portable ultrasound device which she uses to listen to the baby's heartbeat. she didnt hear any. she advised that i immediately get an ultrasound. i called bart and asked him to go to the clinic ASAP. when he got there, i didnt get an ultrasound anymore. we went directly to the hospital. my OB called ahead and so the people there were expecting me na. was brought to the emergency room and everything happened so fast. basta na-feel ko yung super sakit na contractions and when i went to take a pee, two big blood came out. i was then brought to the operating room for a D&C. i entered the OR at 10pm and was out of the recovery room 1am the following day. when i was brought to my room, wala na ko nagawa but to cry.
sobrang sakit ng feeling ng mawala sya. i was really looking forward to this christmas coz i was thinking by then nakalabas na yung baby ko but unfortunately, nawala sya. i cannot explain the pain that i am feeling right now. i just wish that God will still bless me and give me another chance in the future to have a baby. i promise to take very good care of it.
i have to thank God na rin coz walang masamang nangyari sa kin. thanks to my friends who went to the hospital.
7.6.05
1.6.05
27.5.05
Broken Sonnet - HALE
And now I concede on the night
of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I will admit in this fourth line
That I love you, that i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
The clock on the TV says 8:39 p.m.
It's the same, it's the same
And in this next line I'll say it all over again
That I love you, that i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, will never let go
I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go, never let go
But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you
I really like this song. I love the voice of the band's vocalist. Naaliw ako. Crush =)
And now I concede on the night
of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I will admit in this fourth line
That I love you, that i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
The clock on the TV says 8:39 p.m.
It's the same, it's the same
And in this next line I'll say it all over again
That I love you, that i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, will never let go
I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go, never let go
But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you
I really like this song. I love the voice of the band's vocalist. Naaliw ako. Crush =)
26.5.05
i am addicted to nestle fruit selection yogurt berry mix. i can eat one every hour and i dont feel bad hehehe
why is food soooo good!
on other news...i really hope that we dont have to go to work this coming monday. its memorial day. ang onti naman kasi ng holidays sa US eh. lugi talaga kami. gusto ko lang magpabadying-bandying sa bahay. hay sarap siguro nun. sana nga walang pasok.
sa mga inaapplyan ko...please sumagot na kayo!!!
why is food soooo good!
on other news...i really hope that we dont have to go to work this coming monday. its memorial day. ang onti naman kasi ng holidays sa US eh. lugi talaga kami. gusto ko lang magpabadying-bandying sa bahay. hay sarap siguro nun. sana nga walang pasok.
sa mga inaapplyan ko...please sumagot na kayo!!!
25.5.05
something's bothering me. super bothering me and i hate it. i know what i should do about it but i know that it will not really do any good. its been this way for the longest time.
im super excited to see my friend penny again. she's in south carolina right now and will go home next week or next next week. she worked there for three years and we miss her terribly. she does come home twice a year but its not enough. i really appreciate all her nice and encouraging words. we used to talk all the time through MSN and YM but now that MSN is blocked in their system and YM in ours, we only talk through emails. as in everyday. its one thing that i look forward to everyday and its soooo nice that she'll be back home soon.
i read in shala's blog that there's a possibility of her kids going to the US. that's so nice. i know that its her ultimate dream to be with her kids again...so goodluck to you!
im super excited to see my friend penny again. she's in south carolina right now and will go home next week or next next week. she worked there for three years and we miss her terribly. she does come home twice a year but its not enough. i really appreciate all her nice and encouraging words. we used to talk all the time through MSN and YM but now that MSN is blocked in their system and YM in ours, we only talk through emails. as in everyday. its one thing that i look forward to everyday and its soooo nice that she'll be back home soon.
i read in shala's blog that there's a possibility of her kids going to the US. that's so nice. i know that its her ultimate dream to be with her kids again...so goodluck to you!
24.5.05
yeah...i gained 6 lbs. nice. im trying not to gain too much because i wont fit in my clothes. i know its the last thing that one should think of but if we met 5 yrs ago, you'd understand why.
i lost a lot of weight on my last year in college coz of goiter (95lbs nuba!). then john paul (who i terribly miss) was with me in edsamail so i started to gain weight. as in 125lbs. i was that heavy for 2 yrs then i started to lose weight in 2002.
so what's the point? its not cheap to but clothes. i cant just keep everything in my closet because they wont all fit there and its so hard when you have to go through them when your rushing to go to work.
i know there are things in life that are more important that gaining/losing weight and clothes. now i dont get the point of this post.
oh some pics...
me and my mudra and the other pic is my cuz
with wacky & soda on the other pic
haba nawala sa hair ko noh? its a lot shorter now as in!!! i had a haircut yesterday and its super short hehehe i miss my hair...seriously...
i lost a lot of weight on my last year in college coz of goiter (95lbs nuba!). then john paul (who i terribly miss) was with me in edsamail so i started to gain weight. as in 125lbs. i was that heavy for 2 yrs then i started to lose weight in 2002.
so what's the point? its not cheap to but clothes. i cant just keep everything in my closet because they wont all fit there and its so hard when you have to go through them when your rushing to go to work.
i know there are things in life that are more important that gaining/losing weight and clothes. now i dont get the point of this post.
oh some pics...
me and my mudra and the other pic is my cuz
with wacky & soda on the other pic
haba nawala sa hair ko noh? its a lot shorter now as in!!! i had a haircut yesterday and its super short hehehe i miss my hair...seriously...
23.5.05
back at work. not in the mood to go to work actually. super nakakatamad pa and when i got back, napraning ako sa mga na-discover ko...
- my PC will not boot up
- checked my payslip and found out that i wasnt getting the correct transpo/hazard pay
- wala na kong work
of course joke yung part 3. i'll die if i lose my job although i am looking for a 9am-6pm job. mahirap talaga magwork ng nightshift. even if you get 8hours of sleep everyday, parang pagod pa rin. before nga 6 hours na tulog lang basta gabi OK na ko pero super nanghihinayang naman ako. this job pays well.
feel ko, tumataba na ko. punta nga ko ng clinic at makapag timbang. last time 100lbs lang ako, ilan na kaya ngayon? life. o sya...
- my PC will not boot up
- checked my payslip and found out that i wasnt getting the correct transpo/hazard pay
- wala na kong work
of course joke yung part 3. i'll die if i lose my job although i am looking for a 9am-6pm job. mahirap talaga magwork ng nightshift. even if you get 8hours of sleep everyday, parang pagod pa rin. before nga 6 hours na tulog lang basta gabi OK na ko pero super nanghihinayang naman ako. this job pays well.
feel ko, tumataba na ko. punta nga ko ng clinic at makapag timbang. last time 100lbs lang ako, ilan na kaya ngayon? life. o sya...
16.5.05
hmnn...not doing anything productive. i just stay at home to eat, sleep, watch tv, shout at sam and soda when they're too playful, and bully my 5 year old nephew. awww the wonders of not working. i think im being too good at his that i might just resign hehehe. sana i could find a 9-6 job. im applying as admin asst's to other companies. i will most probably get half of what im getting right now but i think ill do just fine. nakakapagod din magpanggabi. hay. antok na naman ako...
13.5.05
12.5.05
thank you so much for the all the wishes and prayers for me and my little angel. 8 weeks na ko ngayon and i've been looking at pictures in the web of how a fetus looks at this stage. grabe buo na pala sya =)
its a weird feeling. no physical evidence that im pregnant not like grace's (si gracia mukang nakalunok ng pakwan eh). medyo sumisikip na yung mga damit ko on some parts pero carry lang =)
im really excited pero scared din talaga. ang lakas lakas ko na kumain (sabagay, dati pa naman hehehe). last tuesday nagpunta pa ko kay mang jun (tabi ng school) kasi gusto ko ng kare-kare. kaso wala silang tinda nun. goldilocks is under renovation so umuwi akong luhaan. salamat sa magaling na ama ng aking anak pinakain naman ako ng kare-kare hehehe pero gusto ko yung matabang lang. alat ng kare-kare sa dencio's kainis.
anyhoo...wala na kong ibang balita. will take a leave from work kasi mahina pa rin heartbeat ng baby. pray for us.
salamat ulit sa moral support.
its a weird feeling. no physical evidence that im pregnant not like grace's (si gracia mukang nakalunok ng pakwan eh). medyo sumisikip na yung mga damit ko on some parts pero carry lang =)
im really excited pero scared din talaga. ang lakas lakas ko na kumain (sabagay, dati pa naman hehehe). last tuesday nagpunta pa ko kay mang jun (tabi ng school) kasi gusto ko ng kare-kare. kaso wala silang tinda nun. goldilocks is under renovation so umuwi akong luhaan. salamat sa magaling na ama ng aking anak pinakain naman ako ng kare-kare hehehe pero gusto ko yung matabang lang. alat ng kare-kare sa dencio's kainis.
anyhoo...wala na kong ibang balita. will take a leave from work kasi mahina pa rin heartbeat ng baby. pray for us.
salamat ulit sa moral support.
8.5.05
happy mother's day to all the moms out there. lalo na to a friend of mine, the ultimate mommy. that's you shala!!! happy mother's day. i just sent my letter to you sobrang delayed na yun. anyways, i have something to show you...
the little white thing that looks like a tiny bulate at the bottom left of the black sac (that looks like a buto ng santol) is my little angel. yep. my little angel. im almost 8 weeks pregnant now and due to give birth sometime in between december 19-22.
its mothers day yesterday and was so touched as some texted me "happy mothers day to a soon to be mom" hayun. napaluha ako. i cant imagine myself being a mom but i know i'll be a cool one =) trained by the best ito eh! it just feels so weird and everytime i go to see the doctor, meron syang nasasabi na not so good news. i have toxic goiter and it might affect my delivery. sa first ultrasound, the heartbeat is only at 92 and they said it should be at least 120-150. i just hope nothing goes wrong. kaya pray for us.
love you all!
the little white thing that looks like a tiny bulate at the bottom left of the black sac (that looks like a buto ng santol) is my little angel. yep. my little angel. im almost 8 weeks pregnant now and due to give birth sometime in between december 19-22.
its mothers day yesterday and was so touched as some texted me "happy mothers day to a soon to be mom" hayun. napaluha ako. i cant imagine myself being a mom but i know i'll be a cool one =) trained by the best ito eh! it just feels so weird and everytime i go to see the doctor, meron syang nasasabi na not so good news. i have toxic goiter and it might affect my delivery. sa first ultrasound, the heartbeat is only at 92 and they said it should be at least 120-150. i just hope nothing goes wrong. kaya pray for us.
love you all!
28.4.05
because i love ryan, i updated the links to this page.
so what's new? i have so much to tell but i'll reserve all those chika for later. i have two letters for shala waiting to be mailed one i wrote last month but i havent had the chance to go to the mall to drop it. hopefully this tomorrow i'll be able to send it out =)
love you all!!!
so what's new? i have so much to tell but i'll reserve all those chika for later. i have two letters for shala waiting to be mailed one i wrote last month but i havent had the chance to go to the mall to drop it. hopefully this tomorrow i'll be able to send it out =)
love you all!!!
25.4.05
19.4.05
12.4.05
im not inspired and not in the mood to work for the past two weeks now. i dunno. i really need a vacation. tier 2 for freehand is leaving on sunday and will be out for two weeks and that means that i'll be handling the issues or worse, the escalations (i pray not!). tiring. im on leave on monday. finally i have leave credits!
what's new? la lang...i enjoyed my cousin's wedding last sunday. it was a long drive to calatagan, batangas but it's worth it. my lola lives next to zobel's hacienda. you see, my lolo was zobel's alalay. wherever the old-rich zobel went, he brings my lolo with him. they stay for six months to a year in different countries and so lolo learned different languages. the old zobel treated my lolo very well and gave my lolo and his family hectares of land beside their hacienda. astig. i was there last sunday looking at the horses hehehe astig talaga.
shala, thanks for the letters. labyu!
what's new? la lang...i enjoyed my cousin's wedding last sunday. it was a long drive to calatagan, batangas but it's worth it. my lola lives next to zobel's hacienda. you see, my lolo was zobel's alalay. wherever the old-rich zobel went, he brings my lolo with him. they stay for six months to a year in different countries and so lolo learned different languages. the old zobel treated my lolo very well and gave my lolo and his family hectares of land beside their hacienda. astig. i was there last sunday looking at the horses hehehe astig talaga.
shala, thanks for the letters. labyu!
8.4.05
i dont know...all of a sudden i have this weird feeling of wanting to go out of town and freeze my fingers in the cold wind (cold pa ba?) of baguio. but that ain't gonna happen anytime soon. this weekend im going to kalatagan, batangas for my second cousin's wedding. always the secondary sponsor, never the bride. had to change that from "always the bridesmaid..." hehehe but im really not complaining or wishing that i be married soon. i just dont like being part of the entourage. i'd rather watch the ceremony. i well up during weddings. specially on the part where the bride and groom exchanges vows. it doesnt have to be the personalized vows, i cry even at the traditional. get married people! i want to go to your wedding =)
i have to go to baguio! i'll be there this may =)
oh and yeah, add me up in Yahoo! 360 =) ay this is my crush. the white guy. his name is alan musselman, our tier 3 for fireworks. the pinoy guy is my teammate. he was sent to macromedia office last month. lucky shit! anyways...crush ko!!! snowboarding boy, geeky, nice looking, and he looks gay =) my type!
i have to go to baguio! i'll be there this may =)
oh and yeah, add me up in Yahoo! 360 =) ay this is my crush. the white guy. his name is alan musselman, our tier 3 for fireworks. the pinoy guy is my teammate. he was sent to macromedia office last month. lucky shit! anyways...crush ko!!! snowboarding boy, geeky, nice looking, and he looks gay =) my type!
30.3.05
have you ever had this feeling where you really want to shout, curse, and say all the bad things you could possibly say to someone but you just can't because you're not just that type of person?
that's exactly how i feel right now. thank you to the geniuses of blogger there's an outlet for me to let out all this bull.
sometimes, im just so effin tired of listening to all these crap and make believe. i really need to wake up, embrace the truth, and live with it.
btw, there's this cheap-o of a person that i really hate who texted "how do you get this number?" dear you mean to say "how did you get this number?" and "where do you leave?" no deary, its "where do you live?"...but then again i was told "feeling mo kasi ang galing mo eh" damn. obnoxious.
people, we are not good enough. we will never be good enough but its not for us to say it, only our creator have the right to say that. get it? deal with it.
that's exactly how i feel right now. thank you to the geniuses of blogger there's an outlet for me to let out all this bull.
sometimes, im just so effin tired of listening to all these crap and make believe. i really need to wake up, embrace the truth, and live with it.
btw, there's this cheap-o of a person that i really hate who texted "how do you get this number?" dear you mean to say "how did you get this number?" and "where do you leave?" no deary, its "where do you live?"...but then again i was told "feeling mo kasi ang galing mo eh" damn. obnoxious.
people, we are not good enough. we will never be good enough but its not for us to say it, only our creator have the right to say that. get it? deal with it.
28.3.05
why no updates?
we had work last week but i did not go to work wednesday and thursday. i was sick and could hardly talk. bart and i were supposed to visit 14 churches for visita iglesia but on the 4th church, i had to ask him to go back home coz i wasn't really feeling well. then last saturday, we went used-car hunting. and there i saw my love...
happy easter everyone!
we had work last week but i did not go to work wednesday and thursday. i was sick and could hardly talk. bart and i were supposed to visit 14 churches for visita iglesia but on the 4th church, i had to ask him to go back home coz i wasn't really feeling well. then last saturday, we went used-car hunting. and there i saw my love...
happy easter everyone!
11.3.05
would just like to share this with my lady friends...was written by Audrey Hepbrun, who was asked to share beauty tips.
For attractive lips,
speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes,
seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure,
share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child
run his or her fingers through it
once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge
that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things,
have to be restored, revived,
reclaimed and redeemed;
never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need
a helping hand, you'll find them
at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover
that you have two hands,
one for helping yourself,
the other for helping others.
The beauty of a woman
is not in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries,
or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen
in her eyes, because that is
the doorway to her heart,
the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman
is not in a facial mode,
but the true beauty in a woman
is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
the passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years.
madalas napaguusapan kasi namin dito sa office naming 5 girls sa team na kung kami ba papipiliin mas gugustuhin ba namin maging maganda or matalino? kasi mahihilig kami manlait. i know its bad pero we sometimes laugh at those who looks beautiful on the outside but has nothing else to offer. yung tipong "tignan mo na lang, wag mo pagsalitain" you dont have to be smart as in IQ of 150 or higher but at least be street-smart or have some sense. then naisip namin, pag naglalakad ka ba napapansin ang talino? di ba ganda naman? naisip ko din, if you're smart you can carry yourself very well. o di ba? iba talaga...ika nga namin ni shala "DYOSA TAYO NG KAGANDAHAN" true friends hehehe
For attractive lips,
speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes,
seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure,
share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child
run his or her fingers through it
once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge
that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things,
have to be restored, revived,
reclaimed and redeemed;
never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need
a helping hand, you'll find them
at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover
that you have two hands,
one for helping yourself,
the other for helping others.
The beauty of a woman
is not in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries,
or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen
in her eyes, because that is
the doorway to her heart,
the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman
is not in a facial mode,
but the true beauty in a woman
is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
the passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years.
madalas napaguusapan kasi namin dito sa office naming 5 girls sa team na kung kami ba papipiliin mas gugustuhin ba namin maging maganda or matalino? kasi mahihilig kami manlait. i know its bad pero we sometimes laugh at those who looks beautiful on the outside but has nothing else to offer. yung tipong "tignan mo na lang, wag mo pagsalitain" you dont have to be smart as in IQ of 150 or higher but at least be street-smart or have some sense. then naisip namin, pag naglalakad ka ba napapansin ang talino? di ba ganda naman? naisip ko din, if you're smart you can carry yourself very well. o di ba? iba talaga...ika nga namin ni shala "DYOSA TAYO NG KAGANDAHAN" true friends hehehe
7.3.05
natatawa ako...last night nagdinner kami ni bart sa congo grille near abs-cbn. the usual, dami namin nakain. we ordered 4 rice, molo soup, kinilaw na tanigue, grilled pusit, and chicken sisig. nauna sya natapos sa kin. was still finishing up the pusit nung sinabi nya "may kwento ko sayo kaso mamya na pagkakain mo baka mawalan ka ng gana" naku i know yung mga start na ganun so minadali ko kumain (kala nyo tinigil ko noh hahaha) tapos hayun...ganito yun eh
bart: guess kung sino tumawag kaninang umaga?
joy: crispy?
bart: yup. bat alam mo agad na sya?
joy: wala lang feel ko. kung ibang chick naman yun nde mo sasabihin eh
bart: loka
joy: kamusta na daw sya?
bart: wala nangangamusta lang
joy: di kinilig ka na naman? hehehe
bart: nde noh!
you see, crispy (lourdes talaga name nya pero nickname nya crispy or py) was bart's girlfriend for 5 years (i think). naging sila nung college sila sa UST mga 10 years ago. i know the what happened kung bakit sila naghiwalay and kung anu pa. kala ni bart magseselos ako. im really past that stage. before when we were starting out nagseselos ako or medyo naiiba yung mood pag medyo napupunta dun yung usapan namin but then nasabi ko naman sa sarili ko na wala pa ako sa buhay nya nun so its ok plus he's secured me many times of what i am in his life now. i often ask him "what if balikan ka nya" he would say na that would never happen because py is happy with her life now and he's found me (awwwww). he gets to talk to her like once or twice a year which is totally fine with me. pretty yun kaya nga lagi ko sya tinatanong bakit ako eh ganda nun ni py. why not look for someone as pretty. syempre sasagot na naman sya ng something pa-sweet =) kinuwento nya yung mga napagusapan nila over the phone and so i asked din why napatawag. sabi nya, nakita daw kasi kami ni py nagdridrive along e.rod. months ago nahiya lang daw sya kaway baka pagawayan pa namin. actually nde naman namin pagaawayan yun. i've been wanting to meet or see her personally. i've heard so much about her from bart and his friends nung nde pa kami and i've always wondered kung yung mga dahilan nga ba why they parted ways eh yun lang talaga. i know she's a good person. one of these days nga makadalaw sa UST para mameet sya hehehe JOKE. sinisermunan nga daw ni py si bart and sabi nya that she should talk to me para pagsabihan bakit ko pinagtitiisan si bart hehehe at syempre ang lolo bart confident sinabi kay py "nung nakita mo ko, nanghinayang ka noh?" natawa ko pramis. its nice that these things napagtatawanan na lang namin. towards the end of their conversation namention na din ni py na soon she'll marry her boyfriend, the guy na pinagpalit nya kay bart =) niloloko ko si bart. i told him wala ata silang closure ng ex nya. he asked like what i meant by that. sabi ko kasi parang sa kwento nya before pa, nde sila formally naghiwalay. py just called him after yung issue nila and sinabi na sila pa rin but never nagparamdam. tumawag na lang ulit after a couple of months para sabihin na happy na sya with her new boyfriend. sabi ko "oh my gawd. isa akong kirida! 3 years na akong kirida!" kasi nga di ba nde naman formal talaga paghihiwalay nila. tawa lang kami ng tawa. it actually feels good to talk about those things knowing that it's not something that will affect us or what we have right now. it was a good night in deed. we spent 4 hours driving around manila then qc then back to manila just talking about life in general...what we have achieved, what we are right now and our future goals. funny. we always included each other in our plans, he always makes it to a point to tell me of my significance in all his plans and all those stuff.
bart: guess kung sino tumawag kaninang umaga?
joy: crispy?
bart: yup. bat alam mo agad na sya?
joy: wala lang feel ko. kung ibang chick naman yun nde mo sasabihin eh
bart: loka
joy: kamusta na daw sya?
bart: wala nangangamusta lang
joy: di kinilig ka na naman? hehehe
bart: nde noh!
you see, crispy (lourdes talaga name nya pero nickname nya crispy or py) was bart's girlfriend for 5 years (i think). naging sila nung college sila sa UST mga 10 years ago. i know the what happened kung bakit sila naghiwalay and kung anu pa. kala ni bart magseselos ako. im really past that stage. before when we were starting out nagseselos ako or medyo naiiba yung mood pag medyo napupunta dun yung usapan namin but then nasabi ko naman sa sarili ko na wala pa ako sa buhay nya nun so its ok plus he's secured me many times of what i am in his life now. i often ask him "what if balikan ka nya" he would say na that would never happen because py is happy with her life now and he's found me (awwwww). he gets to talk to her like once or twice a year which is totally fine with me. pretty yun kaya nga lagi ko sya tinatanong bakit ako eh ganda nun ni py. why not look for someone as pretty. syempre sasagot na naman sya ng something pa-sweet =) kinuwento nya yung mga napagusapan nila over the phone and so i asked din why napatawag. sabi nya, nakita daw kasi kami ni py nagdridrive along e.rod. months ago nahiya lang daw sya kaway baka pagawayan pa namin. actually nde naman namin pagaawayan yun. i've been wanting to meet or see her personally. i've heard so much about her from bart and his friends nung nde pa kami and i've always wondered kung yung mga dahilan nga ba why they parted ways eh yun lang talaga. i know she's a good person. one of these days nga makadalaw sa UST para mameet sya hehehe JOKE. sinisermunan nga daw ni py si bart and sabi nya that she should talk to me para pagsabihan bakit ko pinagtitiisan si bart hehehe at syempre ang lolo bart confident sinabi kay py "nung nakita mo ko, nanghinayang ka noh?" natawa ko pramis. its nice that these things napagtatawanan na lang namin. towards the end of their conversation namention na din ni py na soon she'll marry her boyfriend, the guy na pinagpalit nya kay bart =) niloloko ko si bart. i told him wala ata silang closure ng ex nya. he asked like what i meant by that. sabi ko kasi parang sa kwento nya before pa, nde sila formally naghiwalay. py just called him after yung issue nila and sinabi na sila pa rin but never nagparamdam. tumawag na lang ulit after a couple of months para sabihin na happy na sya with her new boyfriend. sabi ko "oh my gawd. isa akong kirida! 3 years na akong kirida!" kasi nga di ba nde naman formal talaga paghihiwalay nila. tawa lang kami ng tawa. it actually feels good to talk about those things knowing that it's not something that will affect us or what we have right now. it was a good night in deed. we spent 4 hours driving around manila then qc then back to manila just talking about life in general...what we have achieved, what we are right now and our future goals. funny. we always included each other in our plans, he always makes it to a point to tell me of my significance in all his plans and all those stuff.
3.3.05
nagpagupit na naman ako. in two weeks, i had 3 hair cuts hahaha so you can just imagine how short my hair is now. wala lang, nagustuhan ko lang. 3 years naman ng mahaba yung hair ko so hayun. anyway its summer. pero kutod ko nanghihinayang ako. like 12inches nawala sa ulo ko. i feel so lightheaded!
bart is in cebu right now. he went there last monday and will be back tomorrow, friday evening. he's asking me to pick him up in the airport but i dont think i can coz of work. may pasalubong daw sya. i asked kung binilihan nya ko ng gitara...oo daw tatlo. oh noh. alam ko na ata kung anong gitara yun! baliw talaga yun (kaya ryan gusto mo ng danggit papadalahan kita)
nothing new. nde ko pa rin natatapos yung article ko and i f*&king promised my editor that i'll submit it tomorrow morning. screwed. i need to go see a doctor. i think i have CTS (carpal tunnel syndrome). its so painful and started last friday. i thought pagod lang pero nde eh. 1 week na ganun pa rin kasakit. its so hard to type, even click the mouse. i've been favoring my left hand since, turning ambidextrous. no, its not because of texting. i text using my right hand. overworked lang talaga right hand ko. kaines.
SHALA...thanks so much for the letter and card! nabasa ko na sya and i have 2 cards here waiting to be sent out =) sana mapadala ko na agad. kakaaliw noh?
IF YOU LOVE ME, IF YOU'RE A TRUE FRIEND YOU'RE GOING TO BUY ME A DOLL. NOT JUST ANY DOLL...I WANT THIS DOLL (which you can buy at LUTS) PLEASE! look how pretty they are...
bart is in cebu right now. he went there last monday and will be back tomorrow, friday evening. he's asking me to pick him up in the airport but i dont think i can coz of work. may pasalubong daw sya. i asked kung binilihan nya ko ng gitara...oo daw tatlo. oh noh. alam ko na ata kung anong gitara yun! baliw talaga yun (kaya ryan gusto mo ng danggit papadalahan kita)
nothing new. nde ko pa rin natatapos yung article ko and i f*&king promised my editor that i'll submit it tomorrow morning. screwed. i need to go see a doctor. i think i have CTS (carpal tunnel syndrome). its so painful and started last friday. i thought pagod lang pero nde eh. 1 week na ganun pa rin kasakit. its so hard to type, even click the mouse. i've been favoring my left hand since, turning ambidextrous. no, its not because of texting. i text using my right hand. overworked lang talaga right hand ko. kaines.
SHALA...thanks so much for the letter and card! nabasa ko na sya and i have 2 cards here waiting to be sent out =) sana mapadala ko na agad. kakaaliw noh?
IF YOU LOVE ME, IF YOU'RE A TRUE FRIEND YOU'RE GOING TO BUY ME A DOLL. NOT JUST ANY DOLL...I WANT THIS DOLL (which you can buy at LUTS) PLEASE! look how pretty they are...
25.2.05
happiness! finally bing and shala got their snail mails from me =) i have a couple of letters waiting to be mailed here and hopefully find the time next week to send them. i wish to send ryan and jimbo letters as well but i dont have their snail mail address so...
so many things going on now. i dont know where to start. personal issues and projects that i have pending.
- finish the article for the mag. its due tomorrow
- i need to pick up my cheque from medicomm
- get my talent fee from accenture
- go to the dentist
- mail the letters
- finish the website for dataline
- review for dreamweaver mx 2004 certification exam
goodness. i am trying to perfect the act of deadpanly caring for someone. they say i shine/light-up/glow when i see you-know-who hehehe
quote of the day for leaders: It is better to be feared than love judge me not.
so many things going on now. i dont know where to start. personal issues and projects that i have pending.
- finish the article for the mag. its due tomorrow
- i need to pick up my cheque from medicomm
- get my talent fee from accenture
- go to the dentist
- mail the letters
- finish the website for dataline
- review for dreamweaver mx 2004 certification exam
goodness. i am trying to perfect the act of deadpanly caring for someone. they say i shine/light-up/glow when i see you-know-who hehehe
quote of the day for leaders: It is better to be feared than love judge me not.
15.2.05
kausap ko si katherine kanina sa YM. natatawa ako hahaha
kaye: kita daw tayo bukas sabi richelle
babyjenkski: pakisabi kay richelle ayoko pag kasama ka
kaye: tse
babyjenkski: sureness
babyjenkski: what time?
kaye: nagtatago ka pa!
kaye: lunch tym daw
kaye: pag d ako pde kaw nalang makipagmeet
kaye: may interview ako eh
kaye: nde ko alam kung aabot ako
kaye: kasi aalis din sila agad sis nya pagkakain daw
babyjenkski: eh pano ko malalaman
babyjenkski: hanggang kelan lang sya ditow?
babyjenkski: ayaw kita kasi makita sa IM kaya tago ako
kaye:
kaye: sa 24 daw
kaye: eh fully book na ang lola
babyjenkski: onga eh mukang busy
babyjenkski: wag ka na lang painterview hehehe
babyjenkski: san ba interview mo?
kaye: itetext kita mamaya gabi
kaye: eto pala no ng nanay nya
babyjenkski: oist pano ko malalaman kung tuloy?
kaye: ehh eto pa nga naguguluhan ako eh..alam mo ba wstern union?
babyjenkski: oo alam ko western union hari ng padala (tama ba)
kaye: hahahaha
kaye: oo
kaye: ako tigadeliver!!
babyjenkski: nde ka pwede
babyjenkski: mabagal ka
kaye: edi mura lang bayad
babyjenkski: nde pwede
babyjenkski: baka madapa ka lang hehehe
kaye: eto cel no mama ni risyel, dito mo sya text
kaye: 0918*******
kaye: tapos kung makaksunod ako tetext kita
babyjenkski: sandali huy
kaye: wag moko itsitsismis
kaye: po?
babyjenkski: san ba tokyo-tokyo sa cubao? anong oras ba sakto?
kaye: nde ko alam
babyjenkski: nakng!
babyjenkski: sabi ko na magulo ka kausap eh
kaye: sabi ko kasi itetext pa kita eh
kaye: sabi ko tetext natin sya kung pde
kaye: hahahaha
kaye: kelan ba nde?????
babyjenkski: 7am lang ako bukas. tapos magswiswimming ako sa ultra after
babyjenkski: abot naman siguro yun kaso san kikita at what time
babyjenkski: magulo ka talaga!
kaye: oo alam ko hahaha
kaye: sa ali mall daw sabi ng kapatid ko
kaye: don lang daw tokyo
babyjenkski: san ang alimall? hehe
kaye: o di ba nasali sa usapan kapatid k
babyjenkski: san ka ba interview>
babyjenkski: sa bulacan
babyjenkski: bat nde ka aabot?
kaye: eh 11:30 kasi yun jan sa tektite
babyjenkski: ay wag ka na punta hehe
babyjenkski: pa-resked ka
kaye: kaso panel interview eh
kaye: sabi sakin baka daw nde exact magstart
kaye: sus..naguguluhan nga ako kasi offer sakin asst branch head
kaye: pero d pa naman sure kung tanggap ako
kaye: pero sinabi na sakin f ever ano makukuha ko
babyjenkski: naks naman
kaye: lower ang starting kasi wala pako experience sa bank d ba
babyjenkski: pangit! wag na dun
kaye: kaso edi ba gusto ko na magbago ng field
kaye: nde nga? seryoso?
babyjenkski: ang corny naman ang baba ng bigay. mag admin asst ka na lang.
kaye: lapit lang sana branch eh
kaye: magkano?
babyjenkski: pag magpapadala ka kasi ng resume, lagyan mo ng pinakamaganda mong picture
babyjenkski: nde ko alam hehe
kaye: sus
kaye: pero daming benefits
kaye: yun lang isip ko
kaye: kasi d ba gusto ko na magbuntis
babyjenkski: canned goods?
kaye: baka pag mahirapan ako sa work magresign din ako
kaye: kaya gusto ko magaan lang hahahaha
kaye: nde no...
babyjenkski: hehehe
babyjenkski: delata yun noh!
babyjenkski: kaya gusto mo
kaye: pansit canton
kaye:
babyjenkski: corny
babyjenkski:
kaye: san ka ba? work ka na?
kaye: kakaasar to
babyjenkski: wala pa ko sa work. natutulog pa ko.
babyjenkski: hehehe joke!
kaye: ok panaginip lang itu
babyjenkski: hehehe
kaye: o basta uwi nako
kaye: nandito pako sa nanay ko eh
kaye: itetext kita bukas ng umaga ha
kaye: text mo na c richelle
kaye: nasa gimikan yun
babyjenkski: carry on
babyjenkski: dahan-dahan pag-uwi. baka madapa ka sa daan hehe
kawawa naman ang batang yun. sana nga matuloy ang pagkikita namin ni richelle. shala, bing, and ryan. pag kayo naman ang nagpunta dito sa pinas, promise nyo magkikita tayo ha! hayun lang. i'll try to work now.
kaye: kita daw tayo bukas sabi richelle
babyjenkski: pakisabi kay richelle ayoko pag kasama ka
kaye: tse
babyjenkski: sureness
babyjenkski: what time?
kaye: nagtatago ka pa!
kaye: lunch tym daw
kaye: pag d ako pde kaw nalang makipagmeet
kaye: may interview ako eh
kaye: nde ko alam kung aabot ako
kaye: kasi aalis din sila agad sis nya pagkakain daw
babyjenkski: eh pano ko malalaman
babyjenkski: hanggang kelan lang sya ditow?
babyjenkski: ayaw kita kasi makita sa IM kaya tago ako
kaye:
kaye: sa 24 daw
kaye: eh fully book na ang lola
babyjenkski: onga eh mukang busy
babyjenkski: wag ka na lang painterview hehehe
babyjenkski: san ba interview mo?
kaye: itetext kita mamaya gabi
kaye: eto pala no ng nanay nya
babyjenkski: oist pano ko malalaman kung tuloy?
kaye: ehh eto pa nga naguguluhan ako eh..alam mo ba wstern union?
babyjenkski: oo alam ko western union hari ng padala (tama ba)
kaye: hahahaha
kaye: oo
kaye: ako tigadeliver!!
babyjenkski: nde ka pwede
babyjenkski: mabagal ka
kaye: edi mura lang bayad
babyjenkski: nde pwede
babyjenkski: baka madapa ka lang hehehe
kaye: eto cel no mama ni risyel, dito mo sya text
kaye: 0918*******
kaye: tapos kung makaksunod ako tetext kita
babyjenkski: sandali huy
kaye: wag moko itsitsismis
kaye: po?
babyjenkski: san ba tokyo-tokyo sa cubao? anong oras ba sakto?
kaye: nde ko alam
babyjenkski: nakng!
babyjenkski: sabi ko na magulo ka kausap eh
kaye: sabi ko kasi itetext pa kita eh
kaye: sabi ko tetext natin sya kung pde
kaye: hahahaha
kaye: kelan ba nde?????
babyjenkski: 7am lang ako bukas. tapos magswiswimming ako sa ultra after
babyjenkski: abot naman siguro yun kaso san kikita at what time
babyjenkski: magulo ka talaga!
kaye: oo alam ko hahaha
kaye: sa ali mall daw sabi ng kapatid ko
kaye: don lang daw tokyo
babyjenkski: san ang alimall? hehe
kaye: o di ba nasali sa usapan kapatid k
babyjenkski: san ka ba interview>
babyjenkski: sa bulacan
babyjenkski: bat nde ka aabot?
kaye: eh 11:30 kasi yun jan sa tektite
babyjenkski: ay wag ka na punta hehe
babyjenkski: pa-resked ka
kaye: kaso panel interview eh
kaye: sabi sakin baka daw nde exact magstart
kaye: sus..naguguluhan nga ako kasi offer sakin asst branch head
kaye: pero d pa naman sure kung tanggap ako
kaye: pero sinabi na sakin f ever ano makukuha ko
babyjenkski: naks naman
kaye: lower ang starting kasi wala pako experience sa bank d ba
babyjenkski: pangit! wag na dun
kaye: kaso edi ba gusto ko na magbago ng field
kaye: nde nga? seryoso?
babyjenkski: ang corny naman ang baba ng bigay. mag admin asst ka na lang.
kaye: lapit lang sana branch eh
kaye: magkano?
babyjenkski: pag magpapadala ka kasi ng resume, lagyan mo ng pinakamaganda mong picture
babyjenkski: nde ko alam hehe
kaye: sus
kaye: pero daming benefits
kaye: yun lang isip ko
kaye: kasi d ba gusto ko na magbuntis
babyjenkski: canned goods?
kaye: baka pag mahirapan ako sa work magresign din ako
kaye: kaya gusto ko magaan lang hahahaha
kaye: nde no...
babyjenkski: hehehe
babyjenkski: delata yun noh!
babyjenkski: kaya gusto mo
kaye: pansit canton
kaye:
babyjenkski: corny
babyjenkski:
kaye: san ka ba? work ka na?
kaye: kakaasar to
babyjenkski: wala pa ko sa work. natutulog pa ko.
babyjenkski: hehehe joke!
kaye: ok panaginip lang itu
babyjenkski: hehehe
kaye: o basta uwi nako
kaye: nandito pako sa nanay ko eh
kaye: itetext kita bukas ng umaga ha
kaye: text mo na c richelle
kaye: nasa gimikan yun
babyjenkski: carry on
babyjenkski: dahan-dahan pag-uwi. baka madapa ka sa daan hehe
kawawa naman ang batang yun. sana nga matuloy ang pagkikita namin ni richelle. shala, bing, and ryan. pag kayo naman ang nagpunta dito sa pinas, promise nyo magkikita tayo ha! hayun lang. i'll try to work now.
14.2.05
happy valentines to everybody. i know that this day is really not exclusive for those who have special someone's in their life. this is a day of celebrating love so share it with your family and friends as well.
to my parents...i love you both!
to my 3 kuya's...love you all!!!
to all my relatives and friends...love you!!!
and to you...love you the most. you're the only one who makes me feel weak and can make me cry but you also have something in you that makes me so happy and feel loved. thanks for sharing all the love, including me in your future plans, for being in my life and wanting to stay with me.
to my parents...i love you both!
to my 3 kuya's...love you all!!!
to all my relatives and friends...love you!!!
and to you...love you the most. you're the only one who makes me feel weak and can make me cry but you also have something in you that makes me so happy and feel loved. thanks for sharing all the love, including me in your future plans, for being in my life and wanting to stay with me.
29.1.05
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21.1.05
to answer bing's question why ako lagot...kasi ganito yun...
last december, nag-bleed si soda. nde natuloy pagbubuntis nya. so nde sya pwede paliguan. since blood yun, nagbuhol na hair sya pwet nya. which is ok lang naman kung gugupitin. kaso nagkasakit din sya sa balat at may UTI pa ata. dinala ko si soda sa vet last monday para pagroom and for check up. when i went back to pick her up, KALBO NA SYA! as in goodbye shih tzu locks hello bare skin. lagot ako kasi nde ko masabi kay bart dahill maiiyak yun.
well nde naman na ko lagot. last night, hiniritan ako ni bart na palit muna kami. si sam muna sa kin and soda sa kanya. sabi ko "are you sure?" na mimiss na din daw nya kasi si soda. then sinabi ko na kalbo na si soda. nde naman sya syado nagalit...natulala lang sya for some time...natahimik...nde nakapagsalita. hayun. kawawa naman si soda.
last december, nag-bleed si soda. nde natuloy pagbubuntis nya. so nde sya pwede paliguan. since blood yun, nagbuhol na hair sya pwet nya. which is ok lang naman kung gugupitin. kaso nagkasakit din sya sa balat at may UTI pa ata. dinala ko si soda sa vet last monday para pagroom and for check up. when i went back to pick her up, KALBO NA SYA! as in goodbye shih tzu locks hello bare skin. lagot ako kasi nde ko masabi kay bart dahill maiiyak yun.
well nde naman na ko lagot. last night, hiniritan ako ni bart na palit muna kami. si sam muna sa kin and soda sa kanya. sabi ko "are you sure?" na mimiss na din daw nya kasi si soda. then sinabi ko na kalbo na si soda. nde naman sya syado nagalit...natulala lang sya for some time...natahimik...nde nakapagsalita. hayun. kawawa naman si soda.
18.1.05
17.1.05
12.1.05
wow. im happy to know that im not alone in this crazy world. im starting to think that am a bad person for putting myself first in front of my other responsibilities. will still be here to help my family but i guess everybody's right in saying that i should at least put a limit. guess i got carried away since i started working for macromedia. better salary so i thought why not extend my help to everyone but forgot about my needs. as they say, when you're sooo down there, there's no way to go but up. im thinking less now of my disappointments and instead, im being more thankful now for all the blessings, good things that's happened to me, and friends who never fail to lift my spirits up.
got news from my brother on my nephew's status. we all feared that it was meningococemia (which has claimed lives already and is still causing problems in baguio plus two cases in malabon) as the doctors saw symptoms of it but finally they said it was henoch schonlein purpura.
and oh...i've finally organized part of my yahoo album and have added some new photos. just go to http://photos.yahoo.com/jpcastillon. still got more pics to upload...will find time for it. and cheche, so nice to hear from you again. im still here in ortigas and i hope that one of these days, we'll find time to meet and have coffee.
got news from my brother on my nephew's status. we all feared that it was meningococemia (which has claimed lives already and is still causing problems in baguio plus two cases in malabon) as the doctors saw symptoms of it but finally they said it was henoch schonlein purpura.
and oh...i've finally organized part of my yahoo album and have added some new photos. just go to http://photos.yahoo.com/jpcastillon. still got more pics to upload...will find time for it. and cheche, so nice to hear from you again. im still here in ortigas and i hope that one of these days, we'll find time to meet and have coffee.
10.1.05
2005. the year did not start well for me. lots of disappointments and lots of issues at home. im seriously considering resigning coz im not happy here but i need the money. i've used up all my savings coz we're having some financial issues at home. my 3 brothers are all married but they still depend on my mother for some support. its just a ironic and irritates me because i give part of my salary to my mother for bills at home and pati food namin araw-araw. ok lang naman sa kin yun kaso nga lang, 2 of my brothers lives with us (and their family too) and ako gumagastos dun minsan. nde naman ako nagdadamot kaso nahihirapan din naman ako. i should at least be enjoying what im earning right now pero nde ganun eh. like last week, my brother who lives in cavite had to rush his son to the hospital kasi nagkasakit. ok lang magbigay ako dun kaso wala na talaga akong money then nagpapatulong sila sa mother ko kaso wala na rin syang maibigay. imagine, kami ng husto yung namroblema. its not an issue of pagdadamot but more of their responsibility to their own family. since we all started working, its only me who's able to give support to my mom pero pag nde ko sya nabibigyan ng pangbayad ng bills pag kinukulang ako, parang nagtatampo sya. gusto kong sabihin na yung mga kapatid ko ni minsan nde sya tinulungan pero bigay pa rin sya ng bigay sa kanila. i graduated from college sakto sa taon and was even part-scholar for 4 years so they only had to pay 50% of my tuition, nagkatrabaho ako agad and nde na umasa sa parents ko. im the youngest in the family so i was kinda expecting na by this time, mas maganda na status ng family namin pero no, mas nahirapan ata. i really am depressed and halos nde makatulog when im at home to the point that my work's being affected. i would rather spend my time elsewhere. tapos sinasabi pa nila na mag-asawa na ko para wala na silang intindihin nde ko lang masabi that if i get married, wala ng mag susupport sa kanila. hay buhay nga naman. depression. life.
and oh...happy new year everyone.
still, can i say its not fair!
and oh...happy new year everyone.
still, can i say its not fair!
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