i took this quiz on line. 80's song trivia. astig!!!

kakamiss naman si papabitch!

i went out with my girlfriends hershey and liz last night. timing lang. off nila both. liz (hrm grad sya) works for UCC as i forgot na basta sya yung nakakaalam nung mga secret ingridients nung food dun eh yung barkada naming isa owns mocha blends naman hehehe sabi namin dun na lang sya tapos sabihin yung mga secrets ng UCC hahaha



we had dinner and coffee kakaaliw. the usual nanlalait na naman kami ng mga nakikita namin sa paligid habang pinagtsitsismisan kung sinu-sino. kung magsalita kami akala mo mga taga-showbiz! puro artista talks. wala lang kakaaliw.

i feel so sleepy. and bored. and sooo hungry...no lunch for me yet. nde ko feel well actually nirereserve ko sana for dinner later. i went to work early today, well since monday actually, so i can leave early and be somewhere but now i feel so sleepy. nothing to do which explains this third post for the day.



im supposed to be doing bing and shala's blog but i need to be inspired muna para lumabas yung kokonting cretive juices ko. pramis mga lola next week tapos na iyown pero wag magrereklamo kapag puro picture ko ha?



ok...i'll go hang myself now!

Someday we’ll know

If love can move a mountain

Someday we’ll know

Why the sky is blue

Someday we’ll know

Why I wasn’t meant for you...

trueness. fpj declared that he's running for president come election of 2004. i really dont know what to say bukod sa nananawagan na ko sa mga kaibigan ko sa ibang bansa ampunin nyo na ko! wala naman ng reason para mag-stay pa ko dito sa pilipinas! mas gusto ko ng umalis dito. i dont think that i'll miss a lot kaya kunin nyo na ko ok fine...



again, i find myself evaluating the things that i've done. i dunno. 2003's not a good year to me. daming naging problema but im still thankful that i was able to get thru them. close to losing my sanity buti na lang may blog and of course god who's been guiding me kahit na most of the time nakakalimot ako! sana mas ok ang 2004...

according to my friend hershey:



"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself. Now, am i asking a lot??? Beacause I'M WORTH A LOT!"



nice noh? but she forgot to mention that the guy should respect her, love her for who she is, and be loyal. truth is...she's looking for a tall, chubby, semi-kalbo/kalbo guy with a nice car and lots of money!

my new favorite song and on repeat on my winamp Parokya Ni Edgar's The Yes Yes Show. astig. ang saya-saya talaga. ang galing-galing nila. aylabyu parokya!

ohmygawd i need to post this...I SAW RAMY SA FRIENDSTER!!! aylabyu still ramy!!!

X...sobrang pressure! when you say updates, you mean tsismis noh? nothing new. i havent spoken to my assets na mga kapuso hehehe kinda busy here in the office. maybe next week i'll have more chikas and more time to post 'em. kasi kung pipilitin ko magpost now...puro ikinaiinis ko lang maririnig nyo. heto mga officemates ko nangangarir ng mga babae sa chat. tapos sasabihin nila weird ko that i have friends sa forum na pinupuntahan ko. eh my gulay...walang pinagkaiba yun noh! sila nga, nagsasabi pa ng "hey ctc?" hay life...naku si ryan tinatamaan! HAHAHA chatters pala eh!

friday. finally. rest. tired.

im not so sure who else reads this blog but hey i dont care hehehe pero just in case...wag kayong maingay please! i was talking to jorem awhile ago. he told me erwin and paul will soon join him, macky, and vincent (and mon of course) sa GMA. shet. mga anak ng diyos. taena nde na dapat ako nagpakipot kay mon last year nung maka-chat ko sya. oh well. life. opportunities. tanga ko talaga ever. sabi rin ni junji sa kin na aalis na rin sya ng edsamail. goodness...wala na, goodbye na talaga edsamail.



ei i just wanna add lang. if you guys watched the news yung chinese na nakidnapp and napatay, just this week...my gulay kakakaba. she works for coca cola export inc (where my friend jacky works) and dito yun sa building namin. nakakakilabot lang talaga ng sobra. nakakatakot talaga dito sa pilipinas. napatay sya kasi naubusan ng dugo due to gun shot wounds on her legs. the family was ready to give the 10 M (mygawd!) ransom but they were a little too late. sabi nga ni jacky, nde sila halos nakapagtrabaho yesterday kasi shocked lahat. monday she was missing and they found her RAV 4 somewhere in manila-qc area and may mga tama ng baril then the following day, her body was found somewhere in parañaque. sad lang kasi jacky told us that she's a nice person. she's only 32 my goodness. she supports some NGO's and orphanage. bakit ganun, kung sino pa yung may ginagawang may kabuluhan eh sa kanila pa nangyayari yung ganitong bagay? sad talaga. nde man natin sya kilala, let's all pray for her soul and sana mahuli yung mga kidnappers.

so many questions but the answers are so few...

demanding si X! no updates kasi til now nde ko pa natatapos yung mga links. busy sa work. san tambak ginagawa to think nag-OT pa ko nung thursday. besides, walang bago. maganda pa rin ako HAHAHA



eto mukang maprapraning sa start ng december. aalis kasi si papabitch =(

emma posted this on her blog two weeks ago. now ko lang nabasa. sad lang...



i guess the problem is not in the concept of love, but in the variability of that feeling deserved by each person. i always thought that degree is dependent on circumstance. probably it isnt.



some people deserve the travel from far north to parañaque on foot. some people deserve four dozens of roses on an ordinary day.



i dont even deserve a small sacrifice on the one day i resolved to celebrate for the first time -- halloween.



and you ask why my self-esteem is on an all-time low.



im not part of the population that deserves being cheated on or being used.



probably i was too easy to get. probably i have been too convenient. probably i have been too lenient.



i dont know.



probably it would have been different if i were to have the same intellect, smarts, and wit as i have right now...only born mestiza, tall, thin, and pristine with considerable cup size.



but i was not.



and it hurts to think i deserve something i dont, however minimal, given my current state.



at least i have friends who remind me that i could still brightly light up a room with just a smile.





# posted by emma : 6:28 PM

man im hungry i can eat anything you put in front of me!!! finally blogger's up and running...im so happy. staying here in the office is definitely worth it! i was able to do two-days worth of work and got to talk to some of my friends (kathy, rhecel, and penny) kathy's ever so busy so it's a treat whenever i get to talk to her. rhecel's in a different timezone. yeah sure she's here in the country but goes to work at 9pm so i don't really get to talk to her that much and goodness it's been months since we last talked and more than a year since i last saw her. penny's in south carolina...ayun iniiwan panandali ang mga students nya para makipagchikahan and the pamatay topic "anak at pag-aasawa"



must be the weather hehehe but she's really serious that she wants to have a baby na. kahit nga daw walang asawa eh. milagro? kakaiba. she's 25 and nagpapanic. i dunno. nde ko alam. magulo. lahat naman ata dumadating sa panic stage lalo na pag nawalan/walang boyfriend/girlfriend. kakaiba. kakatakot. in god's time. something you have to pray for...



maiba ako...dito sa office namin...puro techsupport and writers (technical, creative, marketing) at may isang kakaibang naligaw. isang physics-ce grad ng ateneo. he's really good! hired as a technical writer kasi he's fluent in chinese eh mga taiwanese boss namin...it's an advantage here if you know how to speak their language. we have three people here na pure chinese...minsan feeling ko nanonood ako ng chinese movies lalo na pag andito yung ibang boss namin. anyway...ang lolo mo na-bored ata ayun...single-handedly (tama ba term?) developing our payroll system that he's incorporating with our time record manager (as in login-logout system). kakaiba! idol! ewan ko bat nagtitiis dito. he's really good...WISH KO AKO DIN they actually gave me a project and gave me a week to review programming and study PHP. ano sila baliw? im supposed to help put up our internal knowledge-base. kaloka! hanggan GUI lang ako HAHAHA but hell i miss programming...



eeekkk it's past 10pm gotta go!!!

hay naku ryan just go to www.manilatonight.com...seek and you shall find. i dont mean to be off-ish on this, pero nakakainis naman mga lalaki na naghahanap ng mga part-time-lover lalu na kung committed sila. nakakainsulto. eh kung nde sila happy and satisfied with their partners, eh di iwanan na nila and maghanap ng iba. unfair naman kasi na nde mo naman pala kayang maging happy kasama sya tapos sya naman trying her best to make you happy to the extent na sya nde na pala masaya. medyo traumatic pa pag nahuli kayo.



maiba naman ako...im contemplating on getting a new haircut as in something new and short. i dunno. naku hair wag magtampo!!! anyway, may inooffer naman sa kin sis-n-law ko eh, name ng shampoo mane and tail and tama as in tail buntot and pag tinignan mo yung shampoo, yung picture sa harap eh mga kabayo hahaha kasi shapoo for horses naman talaga sya hahaha at the back directions for use nakalagay dalawa: for humans and for animals. kakatawa as in pero it's guaranteed to make your hair grow faster than usual. im gonna try it and baka before the year ends eh hanggang waist na hair ko hehehe wishing!!! hayun lang...



i so want to watch a gig of parokya ni edgar. wala lang. namimiss ko na si chito-baby. love ko yun eh.

was showing some "action pics" to my officemates (courtesy of MTC) and oohh boy pare-pareho sila ng reaction. they too want some action. i've never met a guy who'd say no to a free ride. most of the time nga they'd pay pa just to be entertained. kawawang mga gf at asawa. naku kung ako yun, wala. patay patay na. siguro lang kasi mga lalaki mas vocal sa intentions nila unlike girls na mahiyain pero they too have this kind of hunger (funny use of words). wala lang. nakwento ko lang.

ooohhh i so love gifts! i received my first gift from my mommy/daddy =P very nice presentation. look at the ribbon!











ang cute noh! alam ko na gift ko kay papabitch sa christmas hehehe

You've got so much going on right now. You have a lot of things in common. Imagine what you can share for tomorrow. You still have a lot of things ahead of you. Learn about each other together. You come to love not by finding a perfect person but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. And besides, nobody is perfect.



When you truly love someone you don't look for faults. You don't look for answers. You don't look for mistakes. Instead you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults and you overlook excuses. If you truly love someone, you just don't bail out on the other person because there is something wrong with her. You'll know that it's true love you are having if you are still willing to love that person despite of his or her flaws or infirmities.



The reason you met each other may be of destiny. But if destiny will suggest that you'll live without her, then why live not by destiny but of free will?

i resent having said that i wanted to sleep awhile ago. there's so much to do but i cant do anything coz our intranet is not working. com'on taiwan i need a miracle! well at least i have time to visit friends' blogs but i really really need access to our intranet right now! me wants to cry =( i got a weird testimonial from someone. i added him as a friend (and his girlfriend too) pero we're not really close. ta's binigyan nya ko ng testimonial. ayoko naman sya ma-offend so ni-approve ko. wala lang. gusto ko lang makwento. WA PA RIN INTRANET!!!



i think pidopilya si X...hehehe

and thanks yuri...stupid ko talaga hahaha

soda's with papabitch na and mukang at home ang magandang aso sa aircon. sarap ng tulog nya and mas maganda sya pag-gising =P yun lang magigising-gising ka if she needs to go out and do the "thing" pero at least not inside the room di ba? wala akong makwento. nakakainis. ang corny. daming gagawin dito sa office buti na lang absent boss namin. pwedeng matulog muna sandali and later na lang hahataw sa work. oh well



and panalo ginebra last night!

i didnt go to work yesterday and spent the whole day with papabitch instead. the night before, we went to punchline to watch some badings and (ohmygawd) the masculados. ang lufet ng mga singer-more-of-macho-dancers na mga itow! for those of you who are not in the country, malamang you haven't heard of them so try google and you'll see what i mean. anyway basta ganun!



and we watched "matrix revolutions" yesterday. namatay si trinity. sorry sa mga nde pa nakakapanood *evil laughter* pamatay sa effects but im a bit disappointed with the story. it may be because they've revealed so much in reloaded wala ng natira for the 3^rd part of the movie. gwapo pa rin si neo. medyo yung ending is not that clear to me. kasi parang pinatay na rin si neo. sorry again *evil laughter* parang gusto pa nila lagyan ng part 4 yung movie. for me, they should've left it at 1 na lang. they should've not made reloaded and revolutions. basta. watch it and meron ng shrek 2!!! happy!!!



ei ryan...go find me a cute pic of a dolphin that i can use for my blog.

as usual...naghintay sa wala...

Strained maneouvres, keeping silent score

In this invisible war

Every day I seem to lose you more

Both wishing it was like before

In this invisible war



Talk about a fine line between love and hate

We've lost more than our direction of late

Talk about a fine line between lovers and friends

We've never been lovers and now we're not even friends



Want to go away I still love you

Got to go away I always love you

Got to be away Time heals all wounds

...

finally...new template...links are not yet working, will update when i have time na. kanina...i had a nice conversation with kathy. kung nde lang naputol yung internet connection namin (na nagloloko for the past three weeks) eh malamang mahaba-haba na napag-usapan namin. hay...lablayp.

As I've Matured...



I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.

All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.



I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.



I've learned that no matter how much I care,

some people are just jackasses.



I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,

and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.



I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.



I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others

- they are more screwed up than you think.



I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.



I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off.



I've learned that you can keep vomiting

long after you think you're finished.



I've learned to not sweat the petty things,

and not pet the sweaty things.



I've learned that ex's are like fungus,

and keep coming back.



I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.



I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity,

I enjoy it.



I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,

unless we are celebrities.



I've learned that artificial intelligence

is no match for natural stupidity.



I've learned that 99% of the time when something

isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.



I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.



I've learned that the people you care most about

in life are taken from you too soon and all the

less important ones just never go away.

And the real pains in the ass are permanent.