Hey I heard my friends Cliff and Robert resigned na. Cliff's going to Baguio this weekend and ininvite nya ako. I really want to go with him. Meron daw syang ipapakilala sa kin na bagong chikababes nya =) Naks...naka move on na ang lolo. Meet kami later pati si Vincent (kasama rin namin sa work before) sa Side Bar in El Pueblo for a few rounds of beer. Downers ako ngayon eh...I dunno must be the weather.

you called yesterday to basicallly say that you care for me but that you're just not in love immediately i pretended to be feeling similarily and led you to believe i was o.k to just walk away from the one thing that's unyielding and sacred to me well i guess i'm trying not to be nonchalant about it and i'm to extremes to prove i'm fine without you but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind underneath the guise of a smile gradually i'm dying inside friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly cuz i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering so i wear my disguise til i go home at night and i turn down the lights and then i break down and cry so waht do you do when somebody you're devoted to suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through do you cling to your pride and sing "i will survive"? do you hold on in vain as they as they just slip away?

You're with me til the bitter end
What we have transcends
This scary end's too painful to talk about
So I hold it in til my heart can mend
And be brave enough to love again
A place in time still belongs to us
Stays reserved in my mind

Need I say more?

Took the test twice and even if I changed some of my answers, (meron kasing iba nagdadalawang isip ako the first time I took the test) sya pa rin yung lumalabas! But I do remember that I once xeroxed my hands...does that count?

Again I took the test on Ina's journal and LOOK!!!


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I'm sorry but I don't think so....

Still here in the office but will be leaving in a few minutes. Looking forward to at least 10 hours of sleep to get rid of this black thing around my eyes. Been singing Breakdown, I Still Believe (both by Mariah --- softie pala eh noh!), and I’s still say yes which reminds me of things that happened to me when I was in college. Then I heard my officemate singing APO’s “When I met you”. Shet ang sweet. Wala lang =)

BTW, TS head hear in the Philippines to give us training on some movie editing tools (our products of course). It’s so hard to understand his English (he’s a Taiwanese). Kami kaya, kelan ipapadala dun? Kahit sa US office lang =)

Shet…I feel so cheap.

Super thanks to Kathy for sending me Accident Prone ring tone =)

Mia, my batchmate from Dominican College, sent this thru email....

Hardest Things....

a. Being questioned when you yourself don't understand
b. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about ang hirap magpretend promise!
c. Trying to show you care
d. Trying to forget something you know you NEVER will there are times na sinasabi natin sa taong concerned na kalimutan na yung issue pero deep inside it really bothers you naman
e. Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
f. Accepting the fact that you made a MISTAKE I don't have problems admiting that I've made a mistake. There are even times that it is me who says sorry even if it wasn't my fault
g. Debating with yourself DUH madalas
h. Knowing what's wrong and what's right
i. Growing up Hay...wish ko nasa never never land ako
j. ACCEPTING the fact that some things are NOT meant TO BE but if you want it that much, you put effort into making it work (whatever it is) and you pray for it, PWEDE
k. Trying to understand when you just can't daming bagay sa buhay na ganito
l. Swallowing your pride when it has become TOO HARD and TOO BIG to even gulp it down with water no comment
m. Being the LAST TO KNOW about something that CONCERNS you most of all Not naman that I'm always the last to know, nafee-feel ko naman
n. Realizing that you have been TRICKED after you have given your WHOLE TRUST this hurts the most...
o. Realizing that you have taken the most IMPORTANT thing for Granted Trying my best not to do this
p. PARTING with someone you've just LEARNED to LOVE ...
q. Letting GO of someone you've LOVED ALL YOUR LIFE ...
r. Losing someone you care deeply about I don't want this to happen but if the time comes that the person I love the most finds someone better or he would like to work things out with his past, I'll let him go. No questions asked. Basta sabihin lang nya agad and not to let me be the last to know
s. Saying sorry when you mean it How hard could this be?
t. Saying how you REALLY FEEL and Explaining WHERE YOU STAND I have problems saying what's inside of me specially when it counts the most.
u. Knowing what is best and yet doing the exact opposite. Lahat naman ata ganito eh...
v. Bracing yourself for the worst kind of pain... & still hurting so much. Me, I try not to invest too much emotion coz I know it would kill me in the end
w. Loving someone too much and learning to love the pain that goes with it... that even if you learned to let go of the person... you still go on missing the pain you once felt (and there it goes... you fall again)
x. Denying to yourself that you're falling... then finally you realize that indeed you have fallen when it's too damn late and you cant get out So...
y. Being with someone else when the right one comes along (oooh its sad to belong...) ???
z. Knowing deep inside that you love someone yet you can't say it out loud

Monday and I'm so emotional. Just had my period so I can't use the PMS excuse...Was reading a friend's blog and got this line "I believe there is someone out there for all of us. Never settle for second best, and for that one time in your life, you will encounter the meaning of True Love." AGREE. sobra. AND I also took the test on Ina's blog:


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Hmmn ME = cute kisses: kiss on the nose, and kiss on the hands (sa palm) actually lately ko lang na-realize to til sinabi sa kin ng isang tao na its such a sweet gesture. La lang feeling mo appreciated ka hehehe

Watched Harry Potter last night. I was not that impressed but of course it was nice to see the movie version. Siguro lang kasi I've read the book so many times to the point that I already know what will happen next or what the next line is. Will wait for Lord of the Rings =)

Was reading this email re "what men think about women". Nde sya nakakatawa and actually find it insulting...some lang naman. Like this one:

Women don't understand the appeal of sports.
Men seek entertainment that allows them to escape
reality. Women seek entertainment that reminds them
of how horrible things could be.

Bad di ba? It doesn't apply to me. Nanonood ako sa ng live game ng basketball nde lang dahil sa may cute na nagyayang manood =) Nde na ito applicable ngayon. I know a lot of girls who's into sports. This one naman nde ako naniniwala:

"If it is not Valentine's Day and you see a man
in a flower shop, you can probably start up a
conversation by asking, 'What did you do?'"

Evil!!! Well not all men are like that. There are some naman who will give his girlfriend flowers kahit walang okasyon. Me kilala akong ganyan eh kaso nga lang ang problema nde naappreciate nung pinagbibigyan nya tsk tsk tsk

F*&^#@ing internet connection is so slow...my work is web based so as usual nakatunganga ako waiting for the page to finish loading. Lunch time and here I am typing away coz I don't have food. Good thing I had a heavy breakfast kundi siguro nagwawala na ako dito.

Was reading Bing's blog and sobrang nainggit ako coz she said that it's snowing in Canada. Shet-ness. I want snow...^{im dreaming of a white christmas...}

Nothing new and I'm still hoping to hear some good news from mama nini. Haven't seen Harry Potter...DOPE!!! to think na last year nag-effort ako to watch it first day of showing. As in nde pumasok sa work. Trying to be productive here in the office but I can't seem to concentrate on my work. Daming iniisip lapit na kasi mag-Christmas. Marlon's blow-out last night but I didn't go. Sayang ang free food (ooohhh inihaw na pusit, pakbet, bulalo steak, sinigang, atbp.) Anyway meron pa namang next time =)

Went to our old office yesterday. Talked to one of the big guys and he introduced me to the new CEO. Hayun lang. Will meet one of these days to talk about my re-entry to the company. Honestly, I do not know if I should go back there or not. Well most of the people who I have issues with left na and will just have to put up with a few. John Paul asked me which is more important, a good paying job or a better job. The difference: a good paying job where you have to put up with some (few lang naman) people who you think should just stay at home and play scrablle or one that you really like but wont put food on the table. HELP ME DECIDE!!!

ooohhh...me wanna watch Harry Potter. Tomorrow maybe =)

ooohhh...good news please mama nini!!!

ooohhh...shit

Oh gosh...think Im gonna be sick. Can't concentrate on my work coz my head aches and I feel so dizzy. Buti na lang me Advil. Sana lang may effect.

It's the 15^th of the month pero...bad news eh. Hay I don't want to talk about it. Dumadagdag lang sa sakit ng ulo ko. I'm now reconsidering the job at contact world and just gave my resume to Hershey. I hope something good comes up before the year ends. Would love to concentrate on web design and development but my skills aint that good compared to new IT graduates who were able to experience formal training on web development. Trying to update my self with on-line tutorials but its so hard to concentrate and learn on your own! hay...I need a break.

Wala kaming magawa kaninang break so sinamahan namin JP sa baba ksi pipicturan daw nya yung building, hayun...ngpapicture-picture kami dun hahaha as in! PICTURES

Back in the office. Napapansin na nila na palitan kami nung partner ko na si wally sa pag-absent. Haven't seen him since tuesday of last week! Well I'm sure we'll see each other this Friday...sweldo eh =) Been updating our groups webby PIPOL and also my personal webby (for the n^th time. Well...time to go. Sana magaling na honey ko

tsk tsk tsk nde na naman pumasok si Joy. But I don't really mind. I enjoyed the trip naman. Went to Subic with Bart and Carlo. I was getting ready to go to work then I got a text inviting me to go to Tagaytay. Well that was the original plan but ended up going to Subic instead. We even considered going to Baguio since bilis naman ng byahe eh but decided to go to Subic na lang to listen to Carlo's kwento on his lovelife and check out the villas/rooms coz he was planning to bring his family there this weekend. Thought of watching the whale show (grabe layo ng Oceans Park sa Subic proper ah!) pero medyo kulang na sa time. We actually spent more time inside the car driving around. Pinakamatagal na ata yung naka-upo kami kumakain. Hayun...promise...will be a good girl na. No more unnecessary absences. Next week na lang ulit hahaha Thing is, when I was still with Edsamail, sobrang ilang leaves lang nagamit ko pero ngayon sinusulit ko na since its not convertible to cash and madami-dami naman. At least nde ako nangbabadtrip sa office. Speaking of work, we thought of entering the contest for Ulead employees yung gagawa ng slogan or something for brand imaging but we never had the time to conceptualize and natakot kami akala naman namin super gaganda nung gawa nung iba but when we saw the entries...simple lang sila! Kung nag-effort lang kami malamang nanalo kami. I mean $5000 yung prize!!! SAYANG OK na Christmas gift sa min. Sobrang busy rin kasi sa work, well at least yung mga technical/creative writers and marketing group hehehe us sa technical...la lang. Haaay...

Very unproductive last week. Haven't been concentrating on my work lately and my mind's flying...going nowhere. Nothing new. Watched Sweet Home Alabama last saturday with Marlon and Hershey. Sweet movie. Sarap siguro ng feeling ng merong nagmamahal sayo ng buong-buo. I remember yung line nung anak nung mayor na bf nya "everybody have their past but what I would like to know is if I have a part in your future". Not the exact words but something to that effect. Sweet noh. Ang hirap kapag yung tao na love mo merong past na nde nya talaga makalimutan and sometimes you can't help but feel you're nothing but a second best. Ay basta cute ng ending and super natawa lang ako kasi si Hershey umiiyak sa maraming parts nung movie. Sobrang fini-feel nya daw lahat ng sinasabi. BOINK! hahaha Hay lapit na Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, and Matrix!!!

Hay congrats to my brother and sis-in-law for the healthy-cutie baby girl! Galing kasabay pa baby boy ni Pepo and Angel. Will try to visit Iñigo this saturday. Im sure cute yun baby =) I didn't go to work wednesday and friday. I was supposed to go to my interview but decided not to even though I was already in ortigas then. Late na rin naman ako coz they had to bring my sis in the hospital eh la tao sa house. Just met up with Marlon had overpriced coffee and lots of yosi. Hay. We were talking about his lovelife or the lack of it hehehe. hay mga boys. I never thought that they can actually be as emotional as girls. Pero syempre tinatago sa nakararami. Feeling strong but deep inside mamatay-matay naman!

My manager before from Edsamail called me up and said that there is this job opening for IT coach. She also mentioned that my former team members from Edsamail also applied. I was talking to one of them a while ago and found out that it is a call center. Have nothing against call centers at least mahahasa pa ingles ko dun di ba pero ayaw ko na ng phone =( OK sana kasi its in ortigas kaso lang may shifting din. Hay life.

Ikaw bata...wag ikaw mag-inarte ha. You know very well that you are more than a friend to me =) ang LAMIG

Nothing new. Office blessing was OK though it seemed like it was a family affair. As in the family of our country manager. Parang kami pa yung bisita eh. Hayun.

Honey muah!!! Dito ikaw sa heart ko =)

DAMN. Some fuckin' freak used my pc and deleted some MP3s.

Have I mentioned that I'm a hopeless romantic? yup...I am and I have this tendency to fall so deeply in love with someone but hide my true feelings coz I'm afraid to get hurt. One time I showed my true feelings for someone but he did not return it...all I got was a broken heart. Crap. BTW, I have a job interview on November 11 at DLSU for their IT center. Punta ba ko?

Lungkot ako...lapit na kasi mag-January. Honestly, when the time comes that you have to go...nde ko na alam gagawin ko =(

Oooh long time no post. Tried to be as far away as possible from computers and the internet during the 4-day vacation. Wednesday night went out with my friends to watch Loi's (Carlo who used to be an officemate in Edsamail) show in Punchline. Sulit and ang saya kahit na we were standing for almost three hours. Late na kami dumating but it was OK kasi enjoy naman yung show. At least we were able to make Marlon laugh and forget his issues with this girl.

Thursday naman same people then punta kami greenhills para makipagbaratan sa mga sales lady hahaha Jacky kasi eh. She woke up late in the afternoon then realized she needed something new to wear to the halloween party at the NBC tent. So she picked me up and then we went to greenhills. Saw our "kuya's" from Dominican. Mga college sila nun and we were in highschool pero kami yung nang-haharass sa kanila hehehe.

Friday, stayed at home til the afternoon and then went over to my friends house para makipagkwentuhan. Left early since he was going out and I needed to be home before 10pm since we were leaving 5am the next day. Sarap ng byahe going to Batangas since alanganing araw, the highway was free from the usual heavy traffic. Naghanap lang kami actually ng isasakit ng katawan coz 4pm uwi na kami pabalik manila.

Yesterday naman I was with my brother and sister-in-law sa greenhills. Nagpagod ako looking for plain black and plain white baby shirt na round neck. La naman ako nahanap =( babalik na lang ako ulit dun this weekend. Sandali lang naman dun then 4pm nasa house na ko. Just in time to catch me weeks worth of chika sa the buzz and s files hahaha. Around 6:30 my friend picked me up and we went to his place to watch our favorite sunday sitcoms at channel 23 watch you want hahahaha

Hayun lang...today is our office house warming. You should see us. We're all corporate looking!!! Pakitang tao ng isang araw hehehe well at least may free food =) lunch courtesy of la primavera yummy....