30.1.03

La lang...Sugar Free mall show tomorrow. ME GONNA WATCH =)

smile with my my love
dance with me or watch the stars
never turn your back against me...
don't ever keep secrets from me
HAAAAAAAA FRIDAY and sweldo. Dadaan na naman money sa kamay ko haaaay...I have two interviews next week (ortigas yey!!!) and goodtiming coz our boss is in Taiwan (headquarters) buti pa sila holiday (Happy new year my chinese friends!!!) two weeks din yun ha. I wanna go to Ongpin and eat fried wanton...me want fried wanton...but I can't coz I have a bad case of tooth ache. Was happily eating fried chicken colon (isaw) tapos bigla kong napasama ng kagat OUCH tinamaan yung molar ko na nde ko pa nababalik sa dentist.

29.1.03

I've been a bad girl...so? Our network was down so as usual I wasn't doing anything. Tired of playing Snood, I decided to call my friend but he's busy talking to some girl on the other line so of course our conversation was cut short (he made it obvious that he has no intention or what so ever to end the other conversation anyway) unless I wait for an hour or so. Sat beside our admin begging for free food (lots of chi-cha's inside her pedestal) and on top of her desk was this notebook with our names, SS numbers, TIN, and SALARY. Eh syempre tempting! Then she left pa her table. GAWD!!! I wish I was getting Father Veni or Fe's salary. Yun lang...wish...wish

Hey if I were to wish for something that would be for **** ******* **** ** **** ******** **** ** *********!!! JERK!!! It's for me to know and for your to find out hahaha
Fine...I guess totoo yung sinasabi nila na pag super saya ka sa umaga, bagtrip ka na maya-maya.

badtrip mode=on
simangot=on
fast heartbeat=on

i hope that we could spend more time together
a few hours better than never
if we could only make it longer
a whole day would be fine
a whole day would be fine
a whole day would be fineeeeeeee

don't tell your girlfriend about me
coz your girlfriend wont like girls like me
don't tell your girlfriend about me
so you just hold me...hold me...

oh it's sad to belong to someone else
when the right one comes along
***What's a meantime girl?***

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night.

She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime. She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a
"real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light.

She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable ? she doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine.

You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already,and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve.You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She's not
easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool...

. . . why can't all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs ? she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She
obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don't know the reason, really, and at this point I don't even care. I just want to let every guy know who's ever had the good fortune to have
a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won't be around.


Ooohhhh...wala tayong magagawa meron talagang mga lalaki na alam mo na...ganyan magtreat ng girl. Nakakainis noh. Hindi nila napapansin na importante sila sayo. Laging nakakatakot na what if they find someone better...iiwan ka na lang ng basta-basta tsk tsk tsk

Ooohhhh...sorry my dear if I've been catching Z's when I'm with you

28.1.03

I've been eating like a pig!!! As in sobra maya't maya. Nauubos na money ko kakabili ng food! Ayaw ko na tumaba!!! AYAW right now 105lbs ako...hopefully mamaintain ko na to. Hayun lang =)

...pero ang hirap
Got this from one of the many fw's I receive everyday. Tupie sent this to me...gets ko why.

There was once a girl named Ashley who had a boyfriend named Jack. Jack was the most popular guy in school. The three most popular girls were Courtney, ASHLEY, and Emma. Jack thought of Ashley as okay, but he really liked Courtney. Courtney liked Jack also. Well of course she did, everyone did! Ashley and Courtney were worst enemies. Courtney tried to steal Jack away everytime she had a chance to. One day, Courtney asked Jack if he wanted to go to the movies. Ashley heard everything....what movie, what movie theatre and what time. Ashley approached the movies that night and, followed Jack and Courtney. Ashley sat right behind them. She watched them get close to each other and kiss....not only kiss, but practically get it on in the theatre. Courtney asked Jack "Do you want to come to my place and skip this boring movie?" He replied "Hell yes." Ashley had peeked through Courtney's window. Jack and Courtney were mising around and Ashley watched the whole thing. The next day at school Ashley wasn't there. For the next few days Ashley wasn't there. A week later her mother found her in her closet dead...she commited suicide because she had loved Jack so much. Next to ashley's dead body was a note. A note that read: My dearest Jack, I watched you at the movie and at Courtney's house and I will continue to watch you. I never thought you would do something like this to me. I really loved you Jack. Always with you, Ashley

No comment. It's just so sad no. Buti pang nde na lang nya nalaman...

I had a chance to chat with Ina yesterday. Nahihiya ako coz I know malungkot sya pero ako pa yung super nagkwento ng kabadtripan ko. Sobrang thank you sa kanya kasi na-aliw ako sa comment nya which do not belong here hehehe sa kin na lang yun!!!

Nga pala, my sis-n-law confirmed na si Kaye Abad nga at si Chito Miranda (parokya ni edgar). Nandun sila yesterday afternoon sa Vicky Belo sa Greenhills. Na-lost ako!

27.1.03

Ooohhhh...me so paranoid...

Hey did you know that you can upload your pictures and then order prints for only 8 pesos (3R) from Kameraworld? Just go to their website for more info. Astig noh you get to choose pa the branch where you want to pick it up. A friend once told me he wanted a business like that but the machine used for printing is rather very expensive! Good business sana noh since a lot of people are into digital photography. Visit www.photos.ph Wish I have my own kick-ass digital cam...

killing myself slowly...
blood rushing thru my veins...
so this is how it feels...

I want a blogspot account. I want to be able to post pictures and other stuffs here but I can't...don't want to use my credit card for yet another not so good investment. Will try to ask some friends if I could host the images on their servers (utilizing office resources hehehe) Ooohh ever heard of CrushNgBayan?

26.1.03

Back in the office =) Turning a new leaf hehehe

Missed a lot of events last week including the album launch of Sugar Free. For almost two years I've waited for that album and I'm not happy with the fact that I wasn't able to attend the launch. Kathy and I were texting and she said that we're part of the "Thank You's" WOW sweet!!! Will check the M1 later if CDs are available.

Did a little soul-search before I left for work...I think I have my priorities mixed up...not naman all. It may be the reason why 2003 suddenly became not so nice to me. Still looking for my spot in this world. Sana mahanap ko na sya...

24.1.03

Chatting with my friend Shala...I'm so excited for her. She's soon to give birth to another baby boy so goodbye to "chloe" (she was to name the baby chloe if its a girl). My head hurts due to lack of sleep but at least I'm in a slightly better mood right now after talking to Shala. She always makes me laugh. Plus I have a new pen and notebook Harry Potter notebook!!! (Im down to the last page of my offline journal...) Hayun...

Pero pag naaalala ko...naiiyak na naman ako =(
It's 8am. Got home around 3am but didn't get to sleep. My eyes are still puffy...tears.

I woke up as I heard my fon ringing. It's Marlon asking for my resume so I gave him my email add and password so he could check my account and download my resume. I'm looking for a new job. I hope it'll be a good one...

I'm baking instant cookies. It's a mess. Can't seem to do anything right...


am i over reacting? maybe...maybe not
im scared...

23.1.03

Kanina lang...OK pa post ko eh noh...ngayon...medyo nabadtrip ata ako. Meron lang akong nabasa/nabalitaan...You know this thing na "what you do not know will not hurt you" Naiirita ako sa mga lalaki na akala nila tatanga-tanga yung mga girlfriend nila na tamang nde alam yung mga kalokohang pinaggagagawa nila. Minsan ang mga babae dead-ma lang talaga. Kunwari nde nila alam yung mga kalokohan nung boyfriend nila pero lola...alam na alam nila. Guys are bad at lying. Kung akala nila nakatakas sila...nde rin noh. Me photographic memory pa naman mga girls as in super matandain ng mga events plus magaling magtagni-tagni ng info...nakakabuo ng conclusion nde magiimbento ng kwento. Sana tigilan nyo na yun. Sana rin maging mabait na mga lalaki...wag na silang mag-two time. Kasi parang sinasabi nyo na nde na kayo happy sa kanya. Nde kayo satisfied. It makes us feel bad. Kasi parang naghahanap pa kayo ng iba eh. Kung ganun yung situation and gusto nyo talaga ng iba...eh i-letgo nyo na yung girlfriend nyo. Kawawa naman eh. Mga lalaki...hilig maghanap ng babaeng sosyalin (sorry kung me nagbabasa nito na sobrang sosyalin). Trophy girlfriend lang hanap. Hay...hell

Kaya ako...ayaw ko mag-invest ng feelings ko masyado. Ayaw kong pinapakita na apektado ako kasi sayang lang luha. Basta love ko yung tao...bahala na sya di ba kung aalagaan nya yun.
Nde kaya ako matanggal sa trabaho? Sa tingin nyo? Lagi na lang akong absent. Not because I do not like what I'm doing but I really don't feel like waking up early and spend 9 hours inside the office. Enjoy sa house lang tapos lalabas ka...papasyal...makikita mo ginagawa ng mga tao. Naappreciate ko nga MMDA kasi the other day on my way to a friends house nakita ko sa kalye sila mabilis magtrabaho...operation linis side walk. Ang galing yun lang. Natuwa rin ako kanina kasi nabasa ko sa Inquirer yung tungkol sa album launch ng Sugar Free bukas...labas na ang kanilang album na "Sa Wakas". Kulit noh...

19.1.03

Hay...

Saan ka patungo?
Anong gagawin mo?
Sinong kasama mo?

Worried...mother dear is scheduled to go under the knife (raspa) this saturday. Daming events sa saturday (wedding, album launch, movie invites) but of course sya yung pinaka importante. Ang dami kong iniisip...naloloka na ata ako...

15.1.03

Ooohhh 10days to go til Sugar Free's album launch!!!

Si Kathy ata in love...

Gusto ko ng bagong job...

Gusto ko ng Lhasa Apso...

Love you honey!!!

14.1.03

Ooohhh...one test down. Had my check up yesterday and they took a chest x-ray. Happy that the results negative, as in negative of any infection chuchu. I have a normal size good heart, clear lungs field (ooohhh no trace of smoke hehehe) and intact bony thorax. More test to be done on saturday =)

Me want to change career. I want to take up Human Resource. Tingin nyo? Feeling ko kasi I have no future in computers. I may have excelled in my class during college (kasi sipsip daw ako at ma-PR) but since I was stuck in Customer Service/Technical Support, nawala na yung alam ko dun. Hay life...

13.1.03

Shet shet shet napaparanoid ako. I've mentioned that I have discovered this lump on my throat last december. I had it checked and the advise was for me to have a chest x-ray (haven't done that). Now I discovered I have another one just above my colar bone. When I had my check up, the doctor asked me if I feel any pain on my neck I said none coz wala naman talaga pero lately feeling ko meron. Ewan ko ba kung naprapraning lang ako or what. Add the fact pa na Patricia Borromeo died of non-Hodgkin's lymphoma (swelling of lymph nodes also). Buti na lang may internet. Doing some research and I found this very informative site: MEDLINE Medical Encyclopedia Promise papax-ray na ko. Shet natatakot ako =( I know its an infection... just don't know what kind. It can be a simple ear infection or sore throat but it can also be something malignant. Hay la to...soar throat.

12.1.03

Got to talk to Cliff last last week. Astig. They have this phone card in Taiwan with special rates if you're gonna call a landline or celfone here in the Philippines. As in 1.50 or 2 pesos. He also said that you can buy a Nokia 3210 for only 800 pesos and 8250 for 4,000-5,000 pesos. Sabi ko tapunan na lang nya kami ng phone dito hehehe

I broke the headphones for my PC here in the office nung December pa pero till now nde pa ko nakakabili ng replacement. Feeling ko tuloy nabibingi yung isang tenga ko lang. Ano kaya gandang brand?

SINGING OUT LOUD:
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways


hehehe

10.1.03

Nag-undertime ako for the nth time kasi super sakit ng ulo ko sa sobrang antok. Kain na nga ako ng kain para nde makatulog pero walang effect.

Really looking forward to Sugar Free's album launch. Sila lang yung banda na naglakas loob ako na panoorin kahit na mag-isa lang ako =) Sayang wala ng La Piazza sa megamall...Happy na Freedom bar yung venue at least familiar na ko sa place plus nafee-feel ko na makakasabit ako kay Kathy!!! I miss Anonas.

Very good news...nakauwi na si Tina =)

8.1.03

May narealize lang ako...pag nde ako masyadong emosyonal, wala akong makwento.
Hello! Musta na ang journal ko? Sorry blog wala akong makwento...

Looking forward to January 25...album launch ng sugar free. Sana makapunta ako. Sana pwede akong sumabit kay Kathy sa araw na yun. Sana alam ko yung details eh noh. Still part of their mailing list pero sobrang bihira na ko magbasa kasi nde na ako makarelate sa mga kwento nila since nde naman ako nakakapanood ng mga gigs nila. Pero astig sila. Dapat nyo silang mapanood.

I love Mcdonald's sausage mcmuffin with egg. Kahit halos araw-araw ko syang kinakain tamand nde ako nagsasawa.

Naaliw ako sa issue na calling card sa min...ngayon meron akong makulay na calling card hahaha

Saturday night hopefully mapick-up na namin si baby soda (puppy shihtzu) sobrang cutie!!! Sana maging healthy doggie sya =)

Walang relasyon yung mga sinasabi ko noh. Wala talaga ako sa sarili. Siguro sa dami na rin ng kwentong nasa utak ko, nde ko alam kung pano sila pagsasamasamahin...

and please pray for Ina's cousin Tina who was kidnapped. Sana OK na sya.

1.1.03

HAPPY NEW YEAR

And of course dahil bakasyon, I stayed away from my PC kaya ngayon lang ako nakapagpost. Nothing happened that's worth blogging anyway. Imagine new years eve tulog ako. 9pm I went upstairs to catch some Z's kasi walang magandang palabas sa TV. Sabi ko gigising na lang ako before modnight. Nagset ng alarm pero nde ako bumangon hehehe naririnig ko nagriring celfon pero deadma!!! Hayan tuloy nde ko nakausap si papa ryan. 9am na ko nagising...nice way to start 2003.