yesterday, august 29, was my college bud lhen's birthday.

today, august 31, is hershey's (my lovable best girlfriend) birthday

i love birthdays and these two wonderful people are very special to me. i will forever be thankful for them. they were with me in the hospital when i lost my angel (also cel, buchoy, noel, mercy, and bart of course). hershey made me laugh despite the physical pain i was feeling before the D&C procedure and lhen spent the next day with me filling me up with lots of funny memories and kwento's that helped me sane.

i love my friends =)

happy!!! our new babies...

first the box...



finally, the beautiful machine that is a G5 is out



mukang ref from the inside hehehe super linis sa loob!



haay astig. i wish astig din monitors namin. but we have to use the old monitors...anyways...happy!!!



studio 8 launch! happening on sept 6 at 9:30am sa THX in makati (near makati med) punta kayo! register online to attend =)

this is soooo funny!

i feel that there's no such thing as a perfect combination when it comes to relationships. last sunday, i watched will and grace (as usual). it's a continuation of the episode where leo (grace's husbond) cheated on her. it was unforgivable for her and will. i understand how she feels and i kinda know how it feels.

we all want our relationships to be good but it's really impossible specially if only one of you is trying his/her best to make things happen. it's a commitment. you both have to do your part. you don't go on blaming your partner for your unacceptable behavior just because he/she's not perfect (good looks, extremely smart, rich, famous, funny etc.).

i chanced upon a blog of a very pretty girl (ji) who's very much in love with her boyfriend (who's not so good looking noh) . he cheated. he wont admit it but she knows (we always know. right girls?). she said that it seem to have start with text, phone calls, and him (her boyfriend) sharing his troubles. the girl being there for him to listen and give advice. i have to agree with ji. if you have issues, why don't you share it with your partner? that's what they're there for.

i think some people forget that when you are in a relationship, you are not only there to share the love but more than anything, there should be friendship.

her posts are long and i can tell she's deeply hurt and can't seem to trust anymore. the guy asked for a chance for them to work things out but he seem to be doing the same thing.

that's one thing i really dont understand about men. ano ba, pinatawad na nga kayo tapos gagawin nyo ulit? while its true that not only men cheat but hey im a girl, this is my blog so why should i give you guys a fair chance? write your own blog. damnit.

i just wish that we could all be happy.

and btw, the thing you guys say that what we dont know wont hurt us? sus...you dont know what you're talking about. that might have work during the barbaric times but with technoly (and me being the master of knowing everything) it's easy to get caught. no matter how careful you think you are. my services are for hire, btw. i have not only once helped someone "research" something. no, its im not invading privacy. the things are just there...in front of us. i just know how to connect things. that's all. it's so funny the things you find out in the internet.

i dont know why im being like this. guess im a bit frustrated. it pains me to kow there are people out there who loves honestly but not the right person. painful indeed. painful.

i have troubles sleeping at home. why? well...

1. aircon not working so i have to sleep downstairs because it's so hot in my room
2. MWSS fixing pipes outside. they are not using the usual person-held jackhammer but the big truck! imagine the noise
3. im still not used to the schedule
4. i miss having my bebetoy beside me

the other night while playing splinter cell, bart and i were talking about songs that reminds us of the other and songs that we dedicate to each other. while thinking of these songs, he belted out his own version of dancing queen. as in "you can dance, you can cry, having the time of your life. see that girl, watch her sing bringing the tambourine." naloka talaga ako promise!

ay kanina we played bingo. ang lolo mo nag-expect na manalo talaga sya eh. iba daw feeling nya. in fairness to him, mas maganda naman yung cards nya. namumuro pa sya pero in the end, nde pa rin kami nanalo. meron pang next time hehehe

ay picture!

I’ve been tagged by SHALA!

Here goes...

1. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there’s no one around you?
I love to eat, sleep, read, watch TV, and surf the net. These are the things that I'm most likely to be found doing when I'm alone. Recently, I developed the addiction of playing BINGO but when all else fails, I just stay inside my room and read. Unlike some people, I do enjoy being alone sometimes. It gives me time to recharge and do things I like doing on my own. I used to stitch but I haven't had the chance to do that. I haven't found the crossstitch pattern that inspired me to go back to stitching.

2. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
I cry. It feels a lot better after. I've been crying a lot lately. Same reason. I'm still not over the "what ifs" stage but I know it'll get better soon. Sleep and talking to my bestfriend (bart) also helps =)

3. Tag 5 friends and ask them to post it in theirs.
I'm not gonna tag anybody =)

i feel weird but happy. back at work but not really doing anything at the moment. im still going through the refresher training. i badly need it. two months away from work made me feel like a freshie. as in i dont know anything. im trying to familiarize myself again as to where i could find the resources that i need. it's hard.

we had dinner (eat all you can baby!) after they (bart and mike - his teammate) played billiards at big shot. shet. i remember shala you guys used to go there (edsamail days). i never went with you guys kasi alam nyo naman na takot ako kay bart noon hehehe baka kasi pagsamantalahan ako. anyways, nakakamiss yung mga araw na yun na gigimik after work di ba? the movie's that bing and i used to watch...wow. life.

two weeks from now, "ber" month na. christmas. hay. i filled my leave on the 22^nd of december. that was supposed to be my due date. in memory of my supposed-to-be-baby, im taking a leave from work and will hear mass.

i just miss my angel...

funny how we set ourself up for something only to be disappointed in the end. weird that things still works out. scary what people can do.

random thoughts. something that you pick up or something that you feel like saying outloud. something that perfectly describes how you really feel.

peace of mind. that's what everybody wants. it's so simple yet so hard to achieve. sometimes, you feel that you have everything already only to find out that you dont really have anything.

God is giving. whatever you want, he can give it to you. he gives us gifts of joy but sometimes, we forget to thank him for it. God is powerful. he can take that gift anytime he wants to. not to demonstrate his power over you but to tell you that he loves you and he wants you to be stronger.

i love the internet. funny the things you find here.

i am weak. i thought i was strong but no, im no better than what you are right now. i dont know what can make me happy. we are supposed to make ourselves happy but instead, we try to look for that in other people. from our family, loved ones, or friends. it's a good thing but wouldn't it be better if we make them happy instead?

im not really making any sense. i just feel soooo incomplete.

on a lighter note, im officially back to work. pictures of course!

life is short. dont fill it with stupid ideas and dont do those stupid ideas. i dont know really what im talking about. i just wanted to say that hehehe

i've been trying to finish "executive order" by tom clancy and while reading it, i cant help but picture harrison ford as the vice president turned president in tom clancy's novel. wala lang. bagay talaga sya as "jack ryan" astig eh.

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