28.9.04

someone is singing this song to my boyfriend right now...



Don't tell me to stop crying please just hold me while I do

Soothe me with your silence and just cradle me to you

Don't push me for my reasons or expect me to explain

How can I in five minutes shift a lifetime's hidden pain?



Don't tell your girlfriend about me

'cos your girlfriendwon't like girls like me

Don't tell your girlfriend about me

If you just hold me, hold me, hold me....



I went to see a psychic and I paid for good advice

He said "Forget a romance 'til you've sorted out your life.

Be your own mother and your father and your sister and brother,

And even try to crack the art of being your own lover...



Don't tell your girlfriend about me

'cos your girlfriendwon't like girls like me

Don't tell your girlfriend about me

If you just hold me, hold me, hold me....



In my darkest hour you'd be mine,

these wildest dreamsare no crime, or are they? Girlfriend

Coming from a place of need, not one of abundance,

You see he told me. Girlfriend



Don't tell me to stop crying, please just hold me while I do

Soothe me with your silence and just cradle me to you

Don't push me for my reasons or expect me to explain

How come I say I'm happy to be on my own again...?



Don't tell your girlfriend about me

'cos your girlfriendwon't like girls like me

Don't tell your girlfriend about me

'cos your girlfriend won't like girls like me

You don't have to tell your girlfriend about me

If you just hold me, hold me, hold me....


24.9.04

we have a game later at 1pm. bowling. o di ba ang lupet? nga pala, i never had the chance to make kwento here that the last leg of the amazing race was done here in the philippines. they got to manila went to malaguena motors (they pronounced it as mala-gwey-nya) then to victoria cavite. nag-araro ang mga lolo't lola nyo looking for the clues. kawawang kalabaw was called ox hahaha classic! then they went to the coconut palace na nun sinabi nun isang player sa taxi driver "we need to go to the coconut palace. do you know where that is?" manong driver said "cookie palace?" buti na lang nakarating din sila hahaha sa coconut palace, instead of some movie star or someone in filipiniana costume, they had luli arroyo with phil to welcome the players. NUBA! kaya pa? then after that, they went to el nido in palawan. coolest place ever! at least they featured the nice places in the philippines. basta astig.



again we have a game later. exactly 7 hours from now. wish me luck!

16.9.04

I'm over you somehow

Only love knows how

I have the strength to move on again

The more you put me down

'Cause love knows how

It gave me the strength to move on



Spent so many days wondering what's my chances

I never thought I'd be alone

When all I really needed was answers

For the love that you've given to me

I was in need

Where we are where we're at

Boy I coud not see

Every night that I cry

I needed you here by my side

But now I'm over you



Had to use my mind

Couldn't use my heart

I didn't wanna see us apart

This vision is so clear to me

That we were not meant to be

I coudn't see

The desire inside wouldn't let me be

Every night that I cry

I needed you here by my side

But now I'm over you



Life goes on until the new beginning

Set me free from all of these feelings

Now I can see that love's no guarantee

That's why I hold it all inside of me




i used to sing and sing and sing this song back in college. oh well. those were the days. im just in the mood for some reminiscing. i was checking my friendster account and found some guys i used to go out with. wala lang. my childhood sweetheart TJ is now married with a cute little angel and is now based in san diego. im happy for him really pero syempre a bit selos kasi when we were younger, our parents used to joke that they'll let us marry as in mala-arranged marriage when we're old enough. oh well NASAN NA ANG PROMISE NA YUN hehehe he still looks so gwapo pero in fairness his wife looks like a hot mama hehehe



if you love sports, basketball in particular, and had a crush on a varsity player, isn't it the ultimate dream to be able to walk around the campus with you crush? i kinda fulfilled that dream before hehehe i went out for some time with this basketball player back in college hehehe yun lang nde na talaga sya part ng varsity coz pa-graduate na sya nun. naging classmates lang kami sa isang subject coz he had to go back for differential calculus hahaha he's actually 5 yrs older than me pero nakakatuwa lang we would watch PBA live sa araneta, movies and would talk ng matagal sa phone. yun lang bata pa talaga ako. i was 18 then and sya naman 23 na noh soooo medyo iba trip namin pero he do know how to treat a lady. naging good friends naman kami. nakita ko rin sya sa friendster and he's also maried now.



wow.



the other guy na nidate ko naman is actually in my friends list tsaka may crush din ako sa friends list ko. clue? bart name nya hahaha faaanneeeee pero nde nya ko crush eh. oh well.



Ninety miles outside Chicago

can't stop driving I don't know why

So many questions, That need an answer

Two years later, you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart

Who holds the stars up in the sky

Is true love just once in a lifetime

Did the captain of the Titanic cry?



Someday we'll know

If love can move a mountain

Someday we'll know why the sky is blue

Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you



Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?

What the wind says when she cries?

I'm speeding by the place that I met you

For the ninety-seventh time, tonight



Someday we'll know

If love can move a mountain

Someday we'll know why the sky is blue

Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah

One day I'll go Dancing on the moon

Someday you'll know that I was the one for you



I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow

Watch the stars crash in the sea

If I could ask God just one question

Why aren't you here with me, tonight?



Someday we'll know

If love can move a mountain

Someday we'll know why the sky is blue

Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah

One day I'll go dancing on the moon

Someday you'll know that I was the one for you


15.9.04

fark. earthquake. you can just imagine how scared i was. we're on the 44th floor of this thin tall building. iskeyri. checked the phone...OK nobody loves me. no text of concern.

9.9.04

She's out of my life

She's out of my life

And I don't know whether to laugh or cry

I don't know whether to live or die

And it cuts like a knife

She's out of my life



It's out of my hands

It's out of my hands

To think for two years she was here

And I took her for granted

I was so cavalier

Now the way that it stands

She's out of my hands



So I've learned that love's not possession

And I've learned that love won't wait

Now I've learned that love needs expression

But I learned too late



She's out of my life

She's out of my life

Damned indecision and cursed pride

Kept my love for her locked deep inside

And it cuts like a knife

She's out of my life


8.9.04

hahaha ohmygawd i cant believe it. i read something na nde ko sure kung matatawa ba ko, kikilabutan or matutuwa. pero natawa yung unang reaction. weird. nde ko kasi makwento kahit kanino here coz for sure simula ng tsismis. nakakaaliw lang. i know something!!!

3.9.04

making phone pa-cute





that's me, jayem, kesh and HP. HP's a cool dad. as in!