Hmmn...Christmas...dumaan parang walang nangyari. pero happy na rin ako. Why?

5. Complete and healthy family
4. Call from Jimbo (touched ako! will call you one of these days)
3. Happy thoughts and christmas greetings from friends
2. HONEY =)
1. Birthday ni Jesus

for God so loved the world
he gave us His only Son

Nothing new. I'm so fucking unhappy. Two days to go before Christmas still I don't feel the spirit. Wala lang...

Last night I was with Kathy. First gig of the year...imagine that and in just a few days it's 2003 na! At least nakahabol. It was so nice to see Ciudad, Twisted Halo, and Sandwich (promise starstruck pa rin ako when I see them live). First time ko rin to see Boldstar perform live. I wanted to buy their album but I was in a hurry to get home that I forgot to get one on my way out. Yun na lang siguro gift/reward ko sa sarili ko for being a good girl. They said it's available in M1 greenbelt. Will check later. Dito office sa Makari and tagal na namin dito pero never pa ko pumunta ng malls dito. Not even once. Weird. Kathy introduced me to her friend Sunshine last night. Shet. Naaliw ako. Kilala ko sya. Kilala ko brother nya (sabagay...maraming nakakakilala dun hehehe) pero nde nila ako kilala =)

And oh...I did something really stupid last saturday. I gave up my old phone but stupid stupid joy forgot to copy the contacts!!! I use kasi the phone memory instead of the SIM so when I was about to SMS my mother pagtingin ko sa phonebook la na kong contacts!!! Nice noh. WAAAAAAAAH very bwiset weekend.

Thankful for all the blessings I received this year and happy that we'll be celebrating Jesus' birthday. That's what really counts. Not the fancy gifts, decorations, music or parties.

Ok no more money left and still no christmas gifts for my loved ones. As usual, last minute shopping na naman ako!

Im looking forward to next year. Hopefully, 2003 will be nice to me =)

13^th month pay!!!

Jayjay's birthday. Sent her flowers (pinabili ko sa flower shop ng officemate ko). I wasn't able to thank her when I left Edsamail. She believed in me not because she doesn't have a choice but she saw that I have something to offer. Kahit na some people thinks I'm not worthy of my position before, sya naniwala sa kin. Kahit na may times na alam nya na masasaktan ako sa sasabihin nya sa, still sinasabi nya kasi she knows that it will make me a better person and mas maintindihan ko yung situation. Anyway, she called a while ago. Nagthank you and kita daw kami one of these days...makapagpahanap na nga ng work hehehe

HELP!!! I NEED A NEW JOB!!! yep. I want a new job. Nde ko na alam kung san ilalagay sarili ko.

BTW, boss came back from Taiwan so lahat kami dito parang naglalakad sa shells ng itlog. She's not actually my boss, as in direct superior, but she's the representative of our company here in the Philippines. Hay life.

Penny's back and we're going out later. Dinner lang naman and the usual kwentuhan. Missed you girl!!!

Did I mention that I want a new job?

PAKINGSHET kinakabahan ako. Wally, my partner here in the office, told me that the country manager will talk to us later (through chat...nasa taiwan pa sya eh) and we know exactly kung anong sasabihin nya. I've mentioned in my past kwentos that Wally and I hardly see each other here in the office kasi palitan kami sa pag-absent. shet. patay kaming dalawa!!!

Ohhh five days and no post. Busy the past week with:

WEDNESDAY
1. Jen is back. Two and a half years in Dubai. Introduced her to Cliff (officemate from Edsamail) who I first introduced to her through chat. Had lunch with them last Wednesday sa Congo (canteen na ata ng barkada namin...) meaning...nde ako pumasok nun. Well may iba namang reason kung ba't ako nag-absent eh(refer to rnumber 2).
2. Went to the hospital to have my check-up. I discovered this lump on the side of my throat last tuesday and slight (ok mega!) panic naman ako. Doctor advised me to have a chest x-ray and some blood test for my toxic goiter. Early next year I promise.

THURSDAY:
1. Back in the office.
2. Went to Ortigas to get some things from Cliff. We were supposed to eat dinner sa Congo but the place was unusually full. So we decided to transfer to Side Bar. There I saw some of my former officemates including JayDJ (back from New York). It's been more than a year since I last saw him. He was having dinner with MRU (our CEO before) and a couple of other people. Para nga raw me reunion yung mga dating nagwowork dun kasi lahat kami dumalaw. Ang killer dun...dumating si RAMY! Yes...the guy every girl (and even some guys) dreams of. Pwera exage. AT sinagot ni MRU ang aming bill =)

Yesterday nagpaparlor kami ni Jen and Hershey...la lang...tamang bonding =) Imagine more than three hours kami sa parlor! And since we wanted to smoke, dun kami sa kitchen ng parlor. As in dinala dun yung pang hotoil and pang footspa para lang masunod kagagahan namin. Sabagay suki nman dun mga barkada ko so OK lang. Sweet noh. We were supposed to go to libis after pero medyo nabadtrip lang ako so nde na ako sumama. OK pa nga tong si Cliff eh, naka sama sa barkada ko for three gimiks na ah....lufet.

Pagod na ko.

THINK:There are times that one would like to get out of a sorry state that he or she is in. To do this you must be willing to drop everything, turn your back into the good that it was once or the good that it could be in the future, and not to ask questions later.

Hay lots of things on my mind...will write about it later but first let me share with you this song I'm currently in love with.

Passenger Seat by Stephen Speaks

i look at her and have to smile as we go driving for a while
her hair blowing in the open windows of my car
as we go, the traffic lights, i watch them glimmer in her eyes
in the darkness of the evening, and

i've got all that i need right here in the passenger seat
and i can't keep my eyes on the road knowing that she's inches from me

we stop to get something to drink my mind clouds and i can't think
scared to death to say i love her
then the moon peeks from the clouds i hear my heartbeat it's so loud
try to tell her simply, that

i've got all that i need right here in the passenger seat
and i can't keep my eyes on the road knowing that she's inches from me

so sweet...at least kahit papano naalis nya yung onting kabadtripan ko. BTW, my friend Cliff's leaving on the 15th of this month. I wish him lots of luck and peace of mind. Will surely miss him. Dami rin akong natutunan sa kanya. Sana lang lahat ng lalaki katulad nya...kayang aminin kapag sila nagkakamali, gumagawa ng effort to make up for the wrong things they've done, and iparamdam sa better half nila na sila yung number one at pinakaimportante para sa kanila.