you called yesterday to basicallly say that you care for me but that you're just not in love immediately i pretended to be feeling similarily and led you to believe i was o.k to just walk away from the one thing that's unyielding and sacred to me well i guess i'm trying not to be nonchalant about it and i'm to extremes to prove i'm fine without you but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind underneath the guise of a smile gradually i'm dying inside friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly cuz i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering so i wear my disguise til i go home at night and i turn down the lights and then i break down and cry so waht do you do when somebody you're devoted to suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through do you cling to your pride and sing "i will survive"? do you hold on in vain as they as they just slip away?