emma posted this on her blog two weeks ago. now ko lang nabasa. sad lang...



i guess the problem is not in the concept of love, but in the variability of that feeling deserved by each person. i always thought that degree is dependent on circumstance. probably it isnt.



some people deserve the travel from far north to parañaque on foot. some people deserve four dozens of roses on an ordinary day.



i dont even deserve a small sacrifice on the one day i resolved to celebrate for the first time -- halloween.



and you ask why my self-esteem is on an all-time low.



im not part of the population that deserves being cheated on or being used.



probably i was too easy to get. probably i have been too convenient. probably i have been too lenient.



i dont know.



probably it would have been different if i were to have the same intellect, smarts, and wit as i have right now...only born mestiza, tall, thin, and pristine with considerable cup size.



but i was not.



and it hurts to think i deserve something i dont, however minimal, given my current state.



at least i have friends who remind me that i could still brightly light up a room with just a smile.





# posted by emma : 6:28 PM