its more than a week now...im semi close to doing regular things but no work for me yet. scary. when i go back to work, baka nde ko na alam mag-support! honestly, i dont want to go back to work anymore but i dont have any savings because for sure, it will take some time before i find a job that pays as good as my current job. im also looking for a 9am-6pm job. gusto ko na ulit regular life.

i still feel sad specially pag mag-isa lang ako. im trying to stay away from reading mags, going to malls, watching too much TV kasi everytime i see a pregnant woman...naaalala ko lang what happened. i know i should face it and accept what happened pero nakakalungkot pa rin eh. eventually, this will pass but for now, i just dont want to be reminded.

my friends visited me. most of them texted and called. not so many people...err...not all my friends (specially my barkada since highschool) knows about my being pregnant so they were really all shocked by what happened. the more i talk about it with them, the less the pain is.

its just so hard to accept why these things happen. they said that there's a reason for this but what exactly is it?