ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. just last april, we were celebrating because God gave me the chance to have a child but now...all that is gone and even if almost a week passed already, i can still feel the pain and cant help but cry everytime i remember my little angel

last thursday, my brown spotting changed to red. that afternoon, i went to my OB's clinic. pati sya worried na and not very hopeful coz red na yun blood. she had with her this portable ultrasound device which she uses to listen to the baby's heartbeat. she didnt hear any. she advised that i immediately get an ultrasound. i called bart and asked him to go to the clinic ASAP. when he got there, i didnt get an ultrasound anymore. we went directly to the hospital. my OB called ahead and so the people there were expecting me na. was brought to the emergency room and everything happened so fast. basta na-feel ko yung super sakit na contractions and when i went to take a pee, two big blood came out. i was then brought to the operating room for a D&C. i entered the OR at 10pm and was out of the recovery room 1am the following day. when i was brought to my room, wala na ko nagawa but to cry.

sobrang sakit ng feeling ng mawala sya. i was really looking forward to this christmas coz i was thinking by then nakalabas na yung baby ko but unfortunately, nawala sya. i cannot explain the pain that i am feeling right now. i just wish that God will still bless me and give me another chance in the future to have a baby. i promise to take very good care of it.

i have to thank God na rin coz walang masamang nangyari sa kin. thanks to my friends who went to the hospital.