oblivious. when in trouble or when you need someone to talk to, who do you usually go to? me, my friends. they do not really need to know what’s wrong…i just need their sarcasm to remind me that everything will be ok and that life will go on just as fate wants it to. hearing them laugh, rant, insult other people actually makes me feel good. it’s not that often that we see each other but when we do meet, riot. it’s not necessary for everybody to be present…i just need the company of those i’m closest to. phone call is fine. text will do. dinner, lunch or coffee with them is the best. i don’t know what wrong with me but i feel like running to my friends right now. i don’t know…i really don’t know. i guess it’s one of those days when female hormones have control over my brain, as in flooding it with emotional chuva. i’m just too damn emotional. stressful. i haven’t had a decent meal since monday. i know it’s bad but my stomach would just reject anything that goes in it. smoke, yes please...hand me marlboro lights. heartbeat, loud and fast.

bing uwi ka na!!! iwanan mo na canada!!! dali wala akong kasamang manood ng "til there was you" yes promise! shet naalala ko pa pag wala kaming magawa at may bagong tagalog na movie si bing kasama ko nanonood hahaha wala lang trip lang. sarap kasing magkwentuhan sa loob ng sinehan tapos medyo pagtatawanan nyo yung bida. at showing na ang "anger management" kailangan mapanood. kung walang mahihigit na kasama, faki koh! nonood ako mag-isa tapos pag tumatawa ako tinatadyakan-tadyakan ko yung upuan nung nasa harap ko



at meron pa rin akong gustong... promise one of these days...

there are times in life when the person you will love for the rest of your life walks into your life. sometimes, just sometimes you hurt that person, you push them away. not meaning to, but you do.

gwapo ba? hehehe

i was posting/reading through this forum which i haven't visited for the longest time and man...naluha ako promise. i guess kasi sobrang emotional ako these past few days that even the simplest things makes me cry.



"I will keep my silence, Coz I don’t want you to hear my voice cracking

I don’t want to whisper things that ring a bell, Coz now that I’m not that well

I don’t want to hold your hand, Coz I might miss its warmth

I don’t want us to be locked in an embrace, Coz I might stay forever"



and then this one hirit "they say that the most beautiful love stories are the unfinished ones...ironic as it seems to be" kasi the guys girlfriend died. kakalungkot noh. i realize na talagang in relationships you shouldn't hold back your feelings kasi you will never know kung hanggang kelan mo sila makakasama. pinahiram lang sa tin ni god yung mga loved ones natin. and besides, it's not only death that can claim your loved one. andyan yung possibility that he might find someone else, maging iba yung gusto nyo...and then grow apart. i've also accepted the fact na kahit gano mo kaingatan yung relationship, darating at darating yung pagkakataon na mate-test kayong dalawa to the point that all you can do is hope that the love you have for your partner is enough to hold it together. kakatakot but it's true.